AIBU to think the world would be better off without me?

[Helplessandhopeless]

Just that really. I have done a lot of bad and stupid things in my life, and have ended up with no close friends or family, apart from my adult dc who is almost totally dependent on me, no money, a job that I hate and renting a flat. I live in a place where it would be very easy to commit suicide, and that might be best. My dc would HAVE to get their life together then, and/or their father would have to help, he doesn't show any interest now.

I don't know what to say but didn't want to say nothing. I am sure however that your children would want you in their lives. Can you call Samaritans for a chat

No it wouldn't be better off. Please get some help.

Your child still needs you. This would destroy them. We all sympathise. I have had these thoughts. Please tell someone that you are not coping. 💐

OP PLEASE DON'T DON'T THINK OF SUICIDE. I'M LIVING PROOF THAT GOOD UNEXPECTED THINGS HAPPEN AFTER A TIME WHEN BELIEVE ME I DEFINITELY WANTED TO DIE.

You will die naturally one day. But please live first. Even if it's just a challenge for yourself that you can brave very tough circumstances to a better future.

My dc would HAVE to get their life together then

Bereavement is fucking hard. It's hard when your parent has died and keeping your life together when you are grieving and that's with an elderly parent let alone if a parent has committed suicide.

If you committed suicide they would probably go to pieces, they wouldn't be able to get their life together.

Trust me, it wouldn't help them and it sure as fuck wouldn't make things better for them.

Phone the Samaritans and talk to them. Please.

Please contact your GP about an urgent appointment, and contact the Samaritans today.

Sending you strength and hope, OP

It doesn’t seem like it now, but things can and will get better.

Suicide is never a solution so please please don't. Times like these magnify our problems and our feelings. The world needs you, your DC needs you. It sounds like you have been cheated out of happiness by life, it's time to get your revenge by turning it around and having the best golden years ever. It's never too late

Thank you all, lovely people. I'll try and see the doctor, but she seems in such a hurry all the time.

Hi Helplessandhopeless,

We're really sorry to hear you're feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - there are lots of organisations listed which can give you some help right now, so please take a look.

You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected], or phone, anytime, on 116 123. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you'll be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We're moving this thread over to our Mental Health topic now.

Sending good wishes, OP.

Sending strength OP x

@JoMumsnet I don't want anything from anyone, please delete my thread.

Depression makes me feel like it'd be better if I wasn't here. I'm on antidepressants now and that makes it easier to recognise that, although it feels that way sometimes, it's categorically not true. Please phone your GP and insist on an urgent appointment.

@helplessandhopeless nobody thinks that you want anything from anybody, @JoMumsnet was meaning for posters not to give more emotionally and that is something we can need reminding off from time to time.

People care and want to help, perhaps rethink getting your thread deleted, it's now in the mental health section which is much kinder than AIBU and people will help if you need them too.

[quote manitobajane]**@helplessandhopeless* nobody thinks that you want anything from anybody, @JoMumsnet* was meaning for posters not to give more emotionally and that is something we can need reminding off from time to time.

People care and want to help, perhaps rethink getting your thread deleted, it's now in the mental health section which is much kinder than AIBU and people will help if you need them too.

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That's exactly right, manitobajane - we have to post a standard message like this whenever threads like this are flagged up to us. It's absolutely nothing personal, helplessandhopeless, so please don't let this take anything away from the support you're receiving from Mumsnetters on your thread.

We do always move sensitive threads like this one out of AIBU, which can be a bit harsh at times, and into our Mental Health topic because it's generally a more supportive place to post.

We hope you'll be okay with leaving the thread to stand, now we've explained.

Take care

Thank you, and everyone who has been so kind, but posting it was a mistake. I won't do anything silly, please delete the thread for me.