My mental health is crashing and has been over the last week.
I'm not in the UK and have no GP or therapist I can contact. I exercise outside every day but that doesn't seem to improve anything.
My DH is helping with practical things like chores but has no idea how to help with how I feel (one reason for my recurring bouts of depression is the error I made marrying someone so devoid of emotion).
Suicidal ideation is now hourly instead of daily. I know I can't and won't do that as I need to be here for the kids - but knowing I'm stuck like this is dragging me further down.
I tried speaking to friends but their 'It will all be ok in the end, we all feel like this' responses are making me rage. I've cut them off because I can't hear that cheerful shit right now. I feel so out of touch with the accepted 'Blitz spirit' that the suicidal ideation gets worse. And so it goes round and round. I'm trapped in every sense of the word. Any ideas appreciated.