Sorry for the excessive posting (this is my 3rd post this week) buy I don't know what else to do...
I feel so sad and so low and I'm tired of feeling this way. I seriously believe that DD is better off without me. She deserves happiness and stability. I'm not stable and I'm deeply unhapp so how can I be of any use to her. I never feel happy. I don't recognise who I've become and I'm completely riddled with self hate. I feel that the way that I feel deep down within myself has manifested itself into my life, ultimately resulting in DD being removed my SS and me pushing people away and living a life of loneliness and isolation. I have no desire to continue on and we live in a high rise building and I just keep picturing myself jumping out of the window. I really don't wanna be here anymore, I hate my life