how much longer can this go on........cos I know I can't

[Titania]

I just can't see how things are going to get any better.....this housing thing has tipped me over the edge.

I can't do anything....I can't sleep, and I haven't eaten for 4 days...I am at a total loss....I don't want to go out....I don't want to do anything....I can't face going out....wish I didn't have to take ds to school....just want to curl up on the sofa and do nothing.

DH came with me to the doctors yesterday....then left me in a right state to go back to work. I suppose he was pushing his luck asking for more time off as it was. The last thing we need is for him not to have a job.

I tried ringing some helpines but they couldn't do much. Most said to go back to my doctor and to ask to be referred but if she had wanted to do that then she would have done it yesterday. I didn't get any relief talking about things....in fact, I think it got me into more of a state repeating myself all the time.

I don't think I have stopped crying for 24 hours now....

DS2 has been up all night (well since 12.25 anyway) and has now got a temperature.

I have started keeping a diary but TBH I'm not getting much relief from that at the moment (thanks for the idea Essbee)

I've got a horrible fog over my head, and an aching groan in the pit of my stomach. I constantly feel sick and dread having to do anything.

I can't keep going like this.......

Titania - Hi! I agree totally with MIAM and the others. Accept the help that's available. You'll get stronger so much more quickly. It's also good for MIL and FIL to get involved with the normal routines. If they are needed in the future, they'll know the routine and the children will be more at ease with being taken to school and picked up by someone other than you, too. Good luck and take care. You know where I am if you want me. ns

Don't you DARE do anything that even vaguely involves moving a finger!!! This is your one chance and undoubted right to be lazy! I will be extremely miffed if you pass over this right and try to tackle housework - you will only take longer to get better. And we all want you better sooner rather than later. Ofcourse, you are allowed to get up to have lots of hot drinks, buttered toast and chocolate - plenty of it. Have a few choccies for me too!

Glad to hear you're having a rest titania, I was wondering how you were. You really must go easy on yourself - I think you saw my quivering mess thread last week, well I feel dramatically better since I stopped beating myself up about how I am feeling and accepted some love and help from other people. Also the ADs are working now I think. So please don't beat yourself up about all the things you have to do and take any help that is offered!

the rest was a waste of time. I was up all night either being sick or having nightmares. DH and I had an arguement last night as well.......he doesn't want me to be on anti-depressants. He said that it's no good me being 'drugged up to the eyeballs' as he put it. I just ended up ion tears......again....He went to bed and I went and had a shower. I just can't cope anymore. I said goodbye to my kids last night while they were asleep...but then couldn't go through with it........ I really didn't want to wake up this morning.

Titania, first of all take no notice of what dh said. Modern ADs do not make you drowsy or zombie-like AT ALL. You must, must, must see your GP as soon as possible for some help. Your kids need you, so do it for them if for no other reason. PLEASE CALL YOUR GP TODAY

I have to go out now - please can people bump this thread up? I'll check back when I get home at lunchtime.

Titania, spacemonkey is absolutely right - anti d's are not "being drugged up to the eyeballs." I have been where you are and, at the risk of sounding melodramatic, anti-depressants saved my life. Go and pick up your 'phone now and ring your GP - make an appointment for today, say it is an emergency (it is). If you can't do it for you then do it for your children. Please.

thanks moo

titania, we're both speaking from experience - there's no need for you to feel like this. Your dh's remarks are misinformed.

If you feel you can't call the GP, get a friend to do it for you.

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My dh was less than supportive too - he just couldn't understand the way I was feeling. My GP suggested she had a chat with him too - something to think about if your dh is still negative about the anti-depressants.

Please ring, hon.

I have emailed her. Got to go out now. Please keep bumping.

I'm going out in a bit too, but will keep bumping 'til I do.

titania - I'm on ADs - amd you wouldn't say I am drugged up to the eyeballs! i've got nothing on today - would you like me to come over?

MTS - you're a star. I was wondering if there was a nearly MNer who could go and visit.

And I have been on anti-d's for almost 3 years now (and for 5 and a half out of the last 8 years) and I am not drugged up to the eyeballs either. They are not a cure - but they help you cope with the day-to-day things a lot better.

If your dh had an infection, he would take anti-biotics - it's just the same.

Nearby, not nearly.

Titania - are you there, are you OK ?
Please don't suffer anymore, please ring the doctor, thats what they are there for

Titania - I've just rung and left a message on your answerphone. I've said to e-mail me or phone me if you'd like to talk. I'd like to help if I possibly can. ns

MTS and others - I'll let you know (if Titania wants me to) as and when I speak to her. I must keep the line free as much as poss incase she rings. I'll check my e-mails and this thread regularly, too.

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Looking at the time, she may not be back in from school run yet.

let us know how you are as soon as you can

Have to go out now. Hope Titania is OK. Please keep bumping everyone.

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