Dh has been a bad mood all day, I guess like most of us he’s worried although he’s always got a short temper. He didn’t get up until 1pm and then I did something stupid - unintentionally, I mean I made a decision that was stupid but I didn’t do it to annoy him - and he lost his temper. Told me I was selfish and stupid and then not to talk to him because he was angry. Told me I don’t put my family first and I’m useless.
Afterwards I self harmed, not that badly, mainly bruises, some cuts. He’s annoyed again, I didn’t show him but he’s just seen. The bruises are quite noticeable and big but will usually be covered so it’s not a problem. I just think - I deserve it.