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Following my second child’s birth last year I started obsessing that I was dying. It got so bad I went to the GP and she diagnosed health anxiety. August 19-Feb 20 I had cognitive behavioural therapy for health anxiety and generalised anxiety disorder.
few weeks after this stopped the Coronavirus pandemic started. My nerves are shot. I am obsessing about hand washing and door handles and panicking about food and my mother who is diabetic and my children. I work in the nhs and am barely functioning at work. I have to send my children to school/nursery which isn’t sitting right with me. I am snapping and shouting at everyone. I keep randomly crying, I am obsessed with the news and I am basically in a mess. My husband and mother both noticed so I called the GP yesterday who prescribed fluoxetine. I have them. But I’m scared to take them. I read they can sometimes cause suicidal thoughts and self harm ideas. I’m terrified. My GP didn’t spend long in the phone with me and I would’ve asked about this if I’d known. I am genuinely so down, so fragile so please be kind in your replies. I honestly feel I’m cracking up and a useless mom to my two children. I’m loathe to go off work because as I mentioned I’m nhs! I can’t exactly stay off during this chaos! there are too many thoughts in my head and I’ve nowhere for them to go 