I have a history of Generalised Anxiety disorder. We've been trying for 3.5 years and we're waiting for IVF (in vitro fertilization) when we found out we were expecting. This is the first pregnancy and first baby. We've told family and close friends. Everyone is excited except me.
All I keep thinking about is miscarriage and all I'm expecting is to just miscarry at some point. :/ My gut tells me that I won't make it to the second trimester despite having normal pregnancy symptoms.
Feeling a little lost right now. We have a viability scan next week but not sure if that will ease my mind.
I feel so ungrateful for having these thoughts like I'm very grateful to be pregnant but the other main part of me is telling me what is there to get excited about if it's just going to end in miscarriage. I guess the fact that we have been trying for so long has really done a number on me.