5+3. 3.5 years infertility. Can't get excited.

[MrsJay2016]

I have a history of Generalised Anxiety disorder. We've been trying for 3.5 years and we're waiting for IVF (in vitro fertilization) when we found out we were expecting. This is the first pregnancy and first baby. We've told family and close friends. Everyone is excited except me.

All I keep thinking about is miscarriage and all I'm expecting is to just miscarry at some point. :/ My gut tells me that I won't make it to the second trimester despite having normal pregnancy symptoms.

Feeling a little lost right now. We have a viability scan next week but not sure if that will ease my mind.

I feel so ungrateful for having these thoughts like I'm very grateful to be pregnant but the other main part of me is telling me what is there to get excited about if it's just going to end in miscarriage. I guess the fact that we have been trying for so long has really done a number on me.

Hey, I felt the same and am now ten weeks- at the 4-5 week stage I couldn't come to terms with it despite having been trying a year but with a pretty bleak prognosis for natural conception. I felt sure it would go wrong and couldn't invest in it, as if my mind just rejected the idea. I have also suffered with a lot of anxiety in the past.

The first scan probably will make you feel slightly better, each scan I had helped me invest more and the most recent where it starts to look like a baby enabled me to finally feel excitement.

Try and focus on getting through every day and look forward to your next reassurance that things are ok, and hopefully eventually the anxiety will recede as you progress.

And congratulations!

Hi @MrsJay2016, we've taken down your other 2 threads as we don't usually allow duplicates to run! As you had an answer on here we wanted to leave this one up.