Please hand me a grip and tell me 2 weeks is nothing

[nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut]

I'm at a particularly low point at the moment. Not quite crisis point but having lots of intrusive thoughts of suicide and feeling very low and generally flat. I want to cry but it's not happening, I just feel sort of numb and nonreactive. I could probably witness a murder and not feel much of anything, it should probably concern me more than it does. My therapist is on holiday at the moment. He is aware of my situation and asked me to promise that I will be here when he gets back but 2 weeks seems like a ridiculous amount of time to me. I can't look much further ahead than a couple of hours, a fortnight is insurmountable.

I would greatly appreciate having some sense shaken into me if anyone is around. It's not that long, I know, it just feels it.

Can you call the samaritans Op.

Can I be your buddy for the next 2 weeks? I could have written your post, I don’t see my therapist again for 2 weeks because of half term and I spent an hour this afternoon on the phone to the samaritans trying to work out how the hell to get through it. I’m living hour to hour not day to day and there’s a helluva lot of hours in 2 weeks.

Do you have anything planned for tomorrow?

Sure. Thanks. A buddy can only be a good thing. 🙂

I have to go to work. How about you? Anything planned?

I’m on maternity leave at the moment, currently have nothing planned tomorrow so trying to think of something I can do to fill as much of the day as possible. Tempted to go shopping but I’m flat broke due to mat pay!

Try not to focus on surviving the next 2 weeks. Focus on surviving the next 2 minutes, and then the 2 minutes after that and the 2 minutes after that

Same here, skint at the moment so nothing to distract me but Netflix. I never felt any better really for talking to the samaritans. Do you ever find it helps?

Ah that’s a good point, I could watch a Netflix series tomorrow. Generally try and stay away from TV in the daytime as it makes me worse but in the circumstances it might be a good idea.

Yes, I did actually find it helpful she was really kind. I called in a crying panic not being able to imagine coping any longer and was a lot calmer when I hung up. Not a long-term solution but got me through a couple of difficult hours so I’m really grateful to them.

Yeah I think distraction is probably best. Had a rubbish day. My boss just brought me a can of coke into the ladies toilet. 😂 cheered me up a bit.

My boss just brought me a can of coke into the ladies toilet.

Ah this is cute OP! What have you got lined up on Netflix? If you let us know the kind of thing you like I'm sure you'll get some recommendations

Yeah he's a gem. Doesn't really know what to do with tearful women but he tries.

Sex education on Netflix is amazing and such a good distraction.

My boss just brought me a can of coke into the ladies toilet.

That is awesome I love it - full fat or diet?!

Another day done that can be crossed off the list.

Hello @nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut @StillNotANewUser, please can I buddy up with you too? I have 2 and a half weeks to go until next therapy session (for an eating disorder) and not feeling great about it. Getting through a day at a time at the moment.

Feel free. I'm having a horrible day for some reason, just feel rubbish. Nearly halfway there though. Hope you two are faring better.

Sorry your having a rubbish day. Have you got a relaxing evening ahead? I’ve been baking a birthday cake for my son so it’s kept me busy today. Really helped to have something to get on with. Going to try and plan something for each day next week - less time to think then.

Not really. Evenings are hard for me. I do better when I'm at work and distracted. I plan on eating my feelings with a chaser of Ben and Jerry's.

Hey @Star8181.

Had a medium day, nothing too dramatic but v low for most of it. Had a more positive hour this afternoon which was a relief. 10 days.

Visit to the in-laws tomorrow which’ll kill a couple of hours.

How are you two, today? I've had a better day, a few shaky moments but mostly positive.

Evening, good to hear. Had a good day also, until this evening and now I feel very anxious and on edge. Might just have an early night and hope the feeling has passed by morning.

Music is the thing I turn to when I’m stressed or worrying about something. I put it on and it lifts my mood right away.

You have lots of company on here to chat to if things get to much.

Two weeks isn’t long at all. It will be past very soon.

Evening .
Tough day today for no particular reason, struggled to keep my game face on for the family.

Glad to hear that you’ve both had some positive time today, it makes things so much easier to just have a bit of respite. Hope you do feel better in the morning Star

How’s it going @nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut @Star8181?

Hi @StillNotANewUser, sorry for the late reply. I’m getting through each day - my children are on half term this week so we’ve been busy on lots of fun day trips and I’ve really enjoyed spending time with them. But I find the evenings so hard, I’m often on my own as OH goes to the gym and my anxiety gets sky high. Just a feeling of being on edge as if something bad is going to happen. I’ve still got 10 days until my next therapy appointment, it feels so far away and like I’m going it alone.
How are you both getting on?

Please could I join in?
I'm struggling with really bad anxiety and fear at the moment. I can hardly breathe .
My therapist is also on holiday this week.
I had a nasty incident with my DH about three weeks ago and have decompensated since then and feel fearful going home and at home.

Hey @Star8181, glad you’re enjoying half term . I sympathise about the evenings being hard, could you ask your OH to go to the gym in the mornings rather than the evenings so you’re not alone?

@scared2020 I’ve just seen your thread, it sounds like you’re having a horrible time I’m not surprised you’re very anxious at the moment.

I’ve actually had a slightly easier couple of days mentally - DD and I came down with norovirus on Tuesday evening and it’s been so hard keeping her ok and fed while I’ve felt awful that I’ve literally had no energy for feeling anxious! Feeling better now which is a relief in some ways but not looking forward to my brain restarting again.