Please hand me a grip and tell me 2 weeks is nothing

[nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut]

I'm at a particularly low point at the moment. Not quite crisis point but having lots of intrusive thoughts of suicide and feeling very low and generally flat. I want to cry but it's not happening, I just feel sort of numb and nonreactive. I could probably witness a murder and not feel much of anything, it should probably concern me more than it does. My therapist is on holiday at the moment. He is aware of my situation and asked me to promise that I will be here when he gets back but 2 weeks seems like a ridiculous amount of time to me. I can't look much further ahead than a couple of hours, a fortnight is insurmountable.

I would greatly appreciate having some sense shaken into me if anyone is around. It's not that long, I know, it just feels it.

Hope you are on the mend, I wouldn’t wish norovirus in my worst enemy, it’s hideous! Are you still doing okay though?

I’m not at all, struggling so much with my eating disorder. I’m trying to eat more because my weight is so low and I do want to recover, but as soon as I eat more it turns into a binge (or feels very out of control). I can’t get the balance right and feeling very uncomfortable in my own body at the moment.

How is everyone else doing?

Well he's back. Asked how I'd been coping. I told him I was busy and hardly noticed. Pretty sure he knows I'm full of shit.

How is everyone else doing?

@nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut - did you find the session helpful after the break? I still have another week. It’s tough but I’m trying to keep busy. One day at a time.

Sort of. Felt a bit defensive you know, like if I let on that I'd struggled then he would have won. Which is ridiculous really but there you go.

Do you do that after a break?

@StillNotANewUser how is your week going?