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I have severe mental health problems at the minute.
I have depression and psychosis, I'm hearing voices.
I can't concentrate on anything, I'm struggling just to not do what the voice tells me.
My partner of 12 years left me a week and a half ago.
I have 3 kids with varying needs.
I have autism.
I have a care coordinator and support worker, and they are putting a CAF in place for the kids.
My mum reminds me to do basic things like brushing my teeth, or taking food out if the freezer to feed the kids.

I saw my GP today and asked for a fit note to take into the job centre as I'm claiming universal credit.
He gave me one. For a week. Then proceeded to tell me he won't give me anymore because it's about time I got myself sorted and back into the workforce. This is only the 3rd week of fit notes and only my second week of claiming UC, I was in work previously but my mental health and the split with my children's father meant I was no longer able to. I've not even had my first payment yet.

GP told me that as I hadn't made an attempt on my life I didn't need a fit note.

I'm now spiralling. I'm panicking. I'm struggling to ignore the voice which wants me to take the many many tablets I'm on and just be done with it.
I've already contacted my care coordinator and she is out tomorrow.
But in the meantime I don't know where else to turn.

Please help. (I already have a thread in MH but AIBU gets more traffic and I need support right now)

Ok, calm down you can sort this.
You know you don't want to do what the voices say because your here.

Call the 116123 the Samaritans.
You will find help.

I'm sorry you're going through this, it sounds really scary. Is your mum, or a friend able to come and just be with you?

Phone the Crisis Team tonight & tell them how you feel.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

I phoned the crisis team because I was on the verge of taking all the tablets I have in the house. And taking 23 a day, there's a lot here.
They talked me down. I'm ok. I just feel empty.

Just remember you can call them, they are there to help.

Didn't want to read and run...how are you now? Are you comfy?

Didn't want to read and run. How is your relationship with your care coordinator? Would it be possible to contact them or their duty team first thing in the morning to review how things are and make a plan, and once you've decided to do that, have a think about getting through the night, moment by moment?

What works for you? Does anything effectively distract you from the voices? Are you able to ask them to stop for now? Can you do any little things to soothe yourself? Favourite pjs, a familiar movie or music, a warm drink?

Sending much love. Tonight feels so hard and despite that, you can make it through

Just bumping for you, OP. What are the 23 different tablets?

Is there any help with practicalities that the crisis team can point you and your Mum towards?

Also, can you get some physical distance between you and all those tablets for now? Can you put them in a hard to reach cupboard, give them to a neighbour or something similar. I know losing your meds is s pain in the bum but if the urge to take them is increasing to an intolerable point, flush them down the loo if necessary.

Don't take the tablets.
Think of your children and how much they love you.

Your doctor sounds like an insensitive prick.
Can you see a different Dr and get them to sign you off longer on your Fit note?

You sound very vulnerable and you do not need this added pressure.
Phone the Samaritans, just stay away from the tablets.

I hope you are doing okay.

Keep talking on MN, hopefully you will get lots of good advice and support.

Wow, your GP is a fucking arsehole.

I’m really sorry you’re going through all this, it sounds completely overwhelming.

You might want to remind the voices that if you die, they die too, so it would be in their best interests to ask you to do nice things.

Eventually you’ll hopefully realise you’re better off without your partner if they’re capable of buggering off like that.

Hugs and cake.

Tell us about your kids?

I phoned today and a different surgery has taken over my GPs surgery.
They've arranged for me to see a different doctor tomorrow.

Oh, best of luck with that.

How are you feeling today?

I’m glad that you will see a different G.P.
Maybe you could show them what you have written here.
Go in with a list written down so you don’t forget what to say.

You need help and you need extended time on your fit note so that you are not overwhelmed and pressured.

I hope you get lots of support.

Firstly, how are you today? I'm sorry you are having such a shit time.

I'm so glad that you have an appointment to see another GP tomorrow, the other one was an arse.

I'm not patronising you here, just drawing on my own experience. When I have struggled in the past I have given myself a notional big tick or write yourself an actual list of positives if it helps when I have completed a task. Even small tasks. It has helped me on the days when I've struggled to put one foot in front of the other.

Speaking to the surgery today is a big tick, explaining that you need to see a different GP is another. You are awake, another tick, when you are dressed, another. If you've taken the kids to school or been out of the house that's another huge one. Washed? Huge tick.

Again, I'm not meaning to patronise, not at all but on the days when I couldn't see any progress or any end the small reminders that you are doing this and you are doing well can help.

Talking to your GP surgery today is not to be underestimated, they can be notoriously difficult to navigate. I've had days when I couldn't even have done that. So please do take that as a win.

There are idiots in every walk of life, I'm sorry you encountered one the GP when you were at your most vulnerable.

If you feel up to it then start to make a list, just for you so it doesn't need to be neat of the things you need to say to the next GP tomorrow. If you have someone to help you write this list, even better. Better still if someone can go to the appointment with you for support.

Can your talk to your care coordinator? Would they help to speak to the GP?

If it helps use this thread to talk, to moan, to chuck ideas around do it. Anything you need.

What are you doing today? Can you do anything for self care? I know what helps me but yours will be different - a hot bath, a walk, a face mask, a cheery film or television programme, a favourite cake, painting, rearranging your collection of decorative frogs, anything that gives you joy, however small.

Only today to get through then hopefully you can get some help you need. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Again, without patronising, looking from the outside you are doing so much better than you think.

for you.

I'm taking my support worker (I have a care coordinator and a support worker) with me to the doctor tomorrow.
My CC has phoned my GP and told him that I am not fit for work because I'm psychotic.

I am so glad you are getting the support you need.
Your care workers will support you and you will get through this.

You just need to be gentle with yourself, you are going through a tough time.

Stay strong.

Different GP signed me off for 4 weeks and told me to see him again instead of regular GP.
He's also referred me for an x-ray as he thinks I've developed arthritis in my hip. I'm 28