AIBU to not give a shit anymore?

[DeTwamps]

About anything!
Like pure and utter apathy. Don't feel a thing. Don't care anymore. Not one shit is given?

Have I lost the plot (don't give a shit if I have) or do others just not give a fucking tiny shiny shit anymore?

Not caring might be your emotional/mental safety mechanism. To give you a break from what the other half of your brain is thinking. Can you allow yourself to just have a break from the stress? And just be still and wait? Is there any pressure on you to do anything, or can you just allow yourself to switch off for a bit?

Go to A+E - if nothing else it will be interesting. Better than sitting at home feeling nothing.

Keep talking. Just update. You don't have to talk about anything, just say something.

Thanks btw for replying to my thread. I know nobody has to. It's kind of you to bother to engage.

You have more friends than me OP :) I completely understand this feeling. I find it hard. Life is shit sometimes. I'm glad you've called for help.

I am glad you have called an ambulance, you deserve some help at this time and I really hope you get it.

Ye, I think the battle with the GP surgery was just the straw that broke the camel's back for me today. Clearly I'm not having a meltdown about blood results, but it was just one more thing piled onto a million other things and I think my brain has just said enough!
I'm not complaining. It's a really good place to be where you literally don't give a shit anymore. I wouldn't be worried, only that there is a more aware side of my brain plotting and conniving and I don't feel safe while the other side of my brain has clocked off for the day if that makes sense!

It is a weird feeling, I used to feel like this and felt ready to get into my car and leave everything behind. Cannot quite remember why I never did it, but I remember the feeling. It’s liberating and scary at the same time.

There is often a little something deep inside keeping you safe, I think, it’s the part of your brain that made you call 999

And post on here

Reaching out is good

Hope things improve for you OP

It's like the devil on your shoulder and the angel on your shoulder. The angel has resigned from her post, and the devil is gleefully plotting a full takeover.

You have chest pains and felling of no feeling which is heart attack in progress. Just call that ambulance

How da fook do I explain this nonsense to paramedics though.

You won't be their first to feel like this OP.

Simple.
I have had chest pains since yesterday and today I started feeling unwell mentally. And the explain like you did here. If you think they never heard it, you are in for a surprise

And why the hell could I not feel like this at 9am. Nope. DeTwamps picks 8pm at night. So no duty mental health team. Gah.

I have had the paramedics over before, they have seen everything before and are wonderfully non-judgemental and will just want to make sure you are ok

Allergic - what was wrong if you don't mind me asking?

@DeTwamps sorry, I should have made clearer. That was for you. How you can easily explain it. Not me

Could you ring the ambulance back & ask how much longer they think they’ll be & explain that you don’t really trust yourself to stay safe if they don’t get there soon.

It’s a shame you’re feeling so shit, it’s getting harder & harder to find people with a good dose of sarcasm to chat shit with.

I haven't dared to eat all day as every time I ate yesterday, my abdomen just ballooned out of all proportions and I felt sick. I was in agony during the night last night with a pain in my stomach. I know my bloods are fucked up - to what degree I don't know. I know that having your bloods all akimbo can lead to mental health problems too. Still no sign of ambulance to arrive.

Amelie, I'm actually ok now they're coming (supposedly). Well, my mind is on hold so to speak. I'm sure they'll get here when they can. I haven't done anything yet, nor do I plan to now, that I know someone is coming. I'll wait another few hours I suppose. I don't want to hound them.

I have been in what sounds like a similar place to how you are currently feeling @DeTwamps. I felt completely numb, like literally nothing mattered and I didn't care about anything or anyone. It felt strangely peaceful and liberating. However, I was very unwell and needed support from my GP and the crisis team. At the time I felt like that chapter of my life would never end and I would never get better. But that chapter did come to an end and things did get alot better, with time and with support.

Just wanted to say hi and offer a hand hold I hope that the ambulance arrives soon for you

It is strangely peaceful. It's like, you can't hurt me anymore kind of feeling.

It sounds like you've gone into 'freeze' rather than fight or flight after lots of stress.

I found this
www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/living-emotional-intensity/201810/depersonalisation-why-do-i-feel-empty-and-numb

If you feel up to reading it, it might give you a bit of insight perhaps.

I hope you feel better soon and the ambulance comes soon. If you feel you can't tell the paramedics what's happened, maybe try writing it down to give it to them.

You have not lost the plot, it is your brain going into protective mode.
Thinking of you

Or show the paramedics this thread. It makes a lot of sense seeing it written down. I'm sure they wouldn't mind.

Well ambulance have been and I seem back to normal. I think I panicked and then shut off. By the time they got here I was feeling normal again, so they've gone now and I feel ok again. They were kind.