Hi, Its my first time posting here.
Im a mother of two children, I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety + depression. My children are living with their dad because I wasn’t coping after a mental breakdown.
Their father is in another country and my family here was not much help, I had to do what’s best for my children and provide them the care that they needed/deserved with their paternal side of family that I am grateful for.
It’s been a couple years and I’m just not coping. I hate myself for not being stronger back then. I regret making that decision. My children are living much better lives now but I’m dying everyday without them.
My family has not helped me and that has really broken me inside. I have a very big family.
My PTSD gets triggered every time I talk about it or wanna talk to them. I see them when I can afford to travel usually 1 or 2 times year as I’m not working although I’m looking for work & creative opportunities.
At this stage I really don’t know what to do. How do I carry on?
Is there a support group for people like me?
I’m waiting for my therapy to start again, I was seeing one on NHS but they said my case was too severe for only 8 sessions so I am being transferred to level 4 care which more long term as my situation is on-going I think.
In the meantime, I’m trying everything to keep going but I’m running out of strength.
I miss my children they’re getting big and it’s killing me inside.
Thank you for any insight that could help me keep going.
Xx