Feeling worse after phoning the doctors

[Justdone]

Hi all, Ive name changed for this as a few people I know in real life use this and I dont want them to connect the dots.

I don't want to drip feed so I'm sorry if this comes off really long.

I struggle with my mental health, I don't really know what's going on with me but I have periods of what seem to be dramatic highs and lows. I tend to sort of plummet down, and go to the doctors and get medication, but the medication makes me feel too happy and I go a little crazy, so I stop taking it, until I crash again and decide I need help.

Right now it's a massive low. I have no motivation, poor self care, sleeping all the time and my minds like a fog, racing and can't think straight, and I'm also having suicidal thoughts, like the world would be better without me in it, easier with me gone, and there getting harder to talk myself out off.

So today, I took the day off work, hoping to be able to see a doctor and get some help, even if it's just some coping strategies. I phoned the surgery and explained to the receptionist whats going on and she said she'd put me on a waiting list for the doctor to phone me back today.

The doctor phoned, and I felt like I couldn't even get my sentences out or a word in, I managed to say that I was feeling really down and that I wasnt sure I could cope, and the doctor just gave me the number for a crisis charity and an appointment for next Friday.

When the phone call ended, it's left me feeling worse than before, where I was hoping to get some help, Im left waiting a week for an appointment and I'm not sure how to cope in the meantime, all my brain is occupied with is ways to end the pain I'm feeling.

So, I was hoping the lovely ladies on here could reassure me that everythings going to be okay and any advice you may have, I just feel so alone and like I don't want to be here anymore. I'm

The world would not be better without you in it.
I’m sorry you took the day off in hopes of seeing the doctor, but it is good you at least have an appointment. Call that crisis number- you might have a very nice chat.
Do you need to eat something, and do a shower & fresh clothes?
You’ll be okay.

Have you seen a psychiatrist before?

The antidepressants sending you into highs could be a form of bipolar and you might need a mood stabiliser.

Can you keep some kind of diary?

I'm disappointed your GP didn't see you for over a week, definitely use the crisis number and phone the GP back if you get worse.

Hi Justdone,

We're really sorry to hear you're feeling so low.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected] or call them on 116 123, any time.

The mental health charity Mind is also a good place to turn for support. They have a really useful webpage on Tips for everyday living - please do take a look.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you'll be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Sending good wishes

You’re a bit closer to your appointment. How are you doing today?

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that replied, I really appreciate it.

I've just got back from the doctors and after explaining everything about how I feel and the anxiety I'm experiencing even about getting up in the morning, has just made me wish I had never bothered trying to get help.

The doctor, who is probably a lovely lady, left me feeling the worst I've felt in a long long time, she basically talked through a councilling option that is private and I'd never be able to afford even if it's only £20 a session, and basically told me to fill it out on the computer while she watched, after that told me that if I'm stressed about work to just tell them because that'll make me feel better even though works impossible to talk to and alway expecting me to work extra shifts, she gave me the crisis number and sent me on my way.

I really don't know why I bothered.

I am so sorry they weren’t more helpful. Other than the magic crisis number , are there some things you can do that help a little? Do you have a safe place to walk? Do you like libraries or gardens?

Aww OP, I'm sorry you're going through this.
You mentioned you were prescribed meds that have helped you in the past.
Did you get a script for them this time?
If so it might be worth taking them again, to steady the ship and help you get through this episode.
And you will get through, you've done it before and you can do it again.

Sending you a virtual hug and all the best wishes your way.

@cakeandchampagne there are some places that I do like walking to and they do help to calm my mind sometimes, but now I just don't have the energy or motivation to do any of that, today especially, I sort of just came home and got straight into bed, even though there's probably a hundred and one things I should be doing.

@AndSheWas85 no, no medication offered which I hoped would be to manage me to be able to still carry on with life and going to work, just sort of had to self reffered to a councilling service that I can't even afford.

Just feel so useless and done.

@justdone that's awful that no meds were given to you which have helped in the past.
If you really are feeling done, you should go to A&E explain that you have had suicidal thoughts in the past and are at a very low ebb at the moment.
It will be taken seriously as mental health crisis that needs immediate treatment now.
You are doing so well by just getting up and going to your GP today.
That didn't work out for you so it's time for another approach to help you get through.

Were you able to schedule a follow-up appointment?
Could you call the doctor’s office and tell them you really think you need medication?
Put those “hundred and one things” on a list and set it aside for now.