I had my first baby last year. Got pnd. Df has two other kids. Love them to bits. But ex has always caused a lot of stess. Right down to declaring my child should never be born. Despite her having multiple relationships encouraging them to call him dad.
I am no perfect. Neither is dF. I only say this to avoid a drip feed.
Mum of other two complains how she does everything. Ignoring the facr that with his hours i actually do everything beyond the weekend we see the kids. And even then it js me in the parent role as he is tied up with ither work.
I don't want to hear ltb.
I know he can be a git. And i have screwed at him many a times over how he is failong our family unit (sc included)
My concern is - due to all this stress and drama with the ex, df being useleas at best, while getting to grips with being a ftm.
I have resorted to alcohol. Never enough to be pissed. Or even tipsy beyond the odd night.
But i am drained. I am broken. And infucking depressed as the odd window of break when he is home that i should get, i get more work instead.
I find myself crying a lot. And feeling like when we have his kids unless i keep quite and nod and agree and do whatever they ask, df included, if i don't, I'm dirt that should be blanked and ignored like i don't exist.
Am i being unreasonable by considering despite how much i don't want sc to have life messed up even more, that i need to find a way to focus on my littlw one and give is both a chance of a life?