Hi all
I'm a regular lurker on here and have been really struggling with some things recently, and due to the reason described below I can't really confide in anyone how I'm feeling so I'm hoping that by writing everything down some of you lovely people will be able to help and offer some words of wisdom!
Some background - I am happily married with two young children pre school and primary aged. My husband is a stay at home dad and I work full time as a Director of a large retail business. I feel like I love every individual aspect of my life but over the last 3 months or so I've become gradually more and more emotionally exhausted.
My kids are great but they are very demanding of my time, particularly my eldest. I really want to be able to give them the best version of myself but don't feel like I can because I feel so drained.
I don't eat healthily, don't exercise and sit down lost of the day moving from one meeting to the next. Given the nature of my role I work v long hours just to get the job done, and even then I don't feel like I have done my best.
I don't feel satisfied either st home or at work. I feel as though I'm on a conveyer belt constantly between work and then bed. I get home at six, bath my kids and put them to bed then go to bed myself. Up at 6.30 the next morning then on repeat. My poor husband gets no time whatsoever.
The reason why I can't explain this to my husband is that he is a natural worrier and I wouldn't want him to think that I'm about to throw the towel in. I love him and our kids more than anything. I love working too. But I'm just drained.
I have worked so hard to get to where I am career wise and love my family more than anything. If I had to choose I would 100% choose them, but feel as though I'm missing some balance and perspective which means that I can successfully manage both.
Has anyone else felt like this? Like Groundhog Day?! I feel like I'm drowning.
Thanks in advance for your replies xx