If I'm being completely honest with you I don't want to be alive anymore, I'm just so so fed up and I've had enough. My boyfriend is horrible to me all the time he shouts at me, calls me names(lazy,fat,ugly....) and he blames me for absolutely everything he never does wrong. not only that I can't cope with our child I have postnatal depression and still got it at 6 months postpartum. I'm on 200mg of sertraline. I couldn't leave I have no family or friends. I'm up to my eyeballs in debt, I had to get loans and credit cards cause he wouldn't give me any money for food or anything and he won't help me pay them off. I have no money nothing. I pray every night that I die and that I don't wake up