Suicide

[Caitx]

If I'm being completely honest with you I don't want to be alive anymore, I'm just so so fed up and I've had enough. My boyfriend is horrible to me all the time he shouts at me, calls me names(lazy,fat,ugly....) and he blames me for absolutely everything he never does wrong. not only that I can't cope with our child I have postnatal depression and still got it at 6 months postpartum. I'm on 200mg of sertraline. I couldn't leave I have no family or friends. I'm up to my eyeballs in debt, I had to get loans and credit cards cause he wouldn't give me any money for food or anything and he won't help me pay them off. I have no money nothing. I pray every night that I die and that I don't wake up

What a horrible time you are having

How would you feel about contacting your GP and/or health visitor and telling them what you’ve written here? They won’t judge you, they’ll only want to help you but to do that they need to know about the suicidal thoughts and the abuse you are suffering.

The debts can be sorted, stepchange or other charities can help you sort that.

You can have a happy life with your child, you really can. Help yourself by making that call to your health visitor or appointment with your GP.

Bless you @Caitx

You need to make an emergency appointment with your gp.

How old is your child? Do you only have the one?

I don't want to be deemed unfit and have him taken away and he's 6 months old

Oh love - he is abusing you?

Please call your GP, Health Visitor, Women's Aid. There is help out there and you can have a happy life. You most certainly are not an unfit mother!

Hello Caitx, we're really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We've moved your thread across to Mental Health as we think you'll find plenty of users who understand what you're going through.

We very much hope you can find some support irl and that things look brighter for you soon.

They let crackhead alcoholics keep their children, you’re honestly not going to be deemed unfit because you have PND and are being abused.