I know people are going to think I’m disgusting because I do too. I absolutely love my children boy 2 & girl 4 I take them out on a regular basis and I enjoy my days out with them but I mainly take them out because I cannot tolerate them in the house. I sometimes feel like I shouldn’t of had children and that fills me with overwhelming guilt! I’m on my own with them following a bad break up. Their dad has them at the weekends, I have been to doctors and counselling but they just keep changing my medication. I’m now concerned at my rage and anger, I scream at them like literally SCREAM because I’m sick of the constant fighting the constant not being able to send a message on my phone or make important phone calls or keep up with my cleaning and household chores. I feel like everything’s a battle. Today I’ve had to reach out as after 3 times of time out with my little girl while tryin to clean my house, i screamed at her, I grabbed her tightly round the arms and shouted in her ear “Why, why are you doing this to me? Why do you not listen? Why?” And I just went on and on I grabbed her face and said you’re making your mum sad and cross and angry and I can’t do this anymore I then fell to the floor crying as she was telling me I had hurt her race & arms, I felt physically sick how could I hurt my own child? Rage just took over me and it was uncontrollable! I have said sorry and hugged her and told her I love her and she was absolutely fine, but I’m not! I feel disgusting and if I said this was the first time, I would be lying, this is reacurring and I don’t know what to do anymore! I hate waking up in the mornings and just want to go to bed, I feel the minute I open my eyes this starts! I just don’t know what to do or we’re to turn anymore, anyone who can help me or give me advise please do because I just feel like reaching for a bottle of wine and I have a sad feeling of not wanting to be here anymore & feeling that my children deserve and would be happier without me because I’m a cruel horrible bitch of a mother!!! Please some one any one with advice, thank you