Hello Porkyprincess, we're really sorry to hear you're feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected], or call them (free) on 116 123, 24 hours a day, 365 days of the year.
We also wanted to share Mind's information on self-harm with you – it has practical tips on what you can do when you feel like this and where to get urgent help. Maybe take a look and see if there’s anything which might be helpful right now.
One other organisation which could give you support is PANDAS - Pre- And post-Natal Depression Advice And Support foundation. PANDAS Helpline is available from 9am – 8pm every day to offer support and advice and can help to signpost to other organisations if necessary. The number is - 0843 28 98 40.
Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you'll be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well. Going back to your GP to talk about the medication you're on is probably a very good starting point.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We're going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.
OP, we really hope things start feeling a bit easier for you soon. 