I don't think I could possibly feel any worse in my life ever than I do right now. I've always been up and down with depression since I was 12. I'm 22 now with 3 kids and I love them and they are all that keeps me happy. But otherwise I'm really miserable in life, I love that I've had my babies young but life just feels too much for me. I'm sick of depending on medication to make me feel better. Is this what life is going to feel like forever? I'm so fed up. I can't do the everyday anymore, I can't go to bed at night and wake up with no motivation, no go, no positive feelings any longer. I've been considering hanging myself for months, I'm just worried about what would happen to my kids because my family is shit and so is their dad (all 3 have the same dad). I would want them to go into care but don't want them to be separated but I know that's asking too much. I feel selfish for wanting to end my life but I can't see it getting better for me. I'm all my children have but I don't feel that I am enough. I'm rubbish. I hate life, how things are these days disgusts me, I hate the world we live in. Just can't cope.