I often wish I wasn’t here. Tonight is a particularly bad night and I just want to disappear.
My dd is my world and only nearly 3. She is literally all that keeps me here.
I’m 29 and I’ve dealt with constant ill health, nearly dying when my dd was born, an abusive marriage (physical, sexual,verbal, financial), being completely let down by family, losing my career as a nurse as my dd is autistic (I wouldn’t change her for the world but my god it’s hard) constant hurt and being let down by people I love.
I just can’t cope anymore. I’m on medication, I’m under the mental health team, yet I’m still struggling.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel numb once my dd is in bed. She’s my everything and I’d do anything for her, but I’m only ever going to let her down.
I just can’t do this anymore.