Mum to 7minth old.
History of desperation and anxiety with longest period since Nov16 with no let up.
Suicidal, not functioning, not coping and just about able to do basic things for baby.
Been with perinatal services for over a year now. No help whatsoever tbh. Just call, visit, talk.
Can't cope without babies emotional needs, becoming so needy and demanding. Getting angry and starting to resent and hate baby.
Professionals seems to think I'm doing well. Don't know what their definition of well is. I'm not eating, sleeping, washing, dressing, going out (apart from appointments for mental health), socialising...
Have managed feeds, nappy changes and health visitor appointments and that's it.
Social thoughts there first in morning and last thing at night. Want to get away. Have help from babies dad but still not
Hoping it getting better mentally. Have contact with perinatal nurse, psychiatrist, psychologist and support eworker but I don't know what they do tbh. I just go to appointments, they ask questions, I leave and I'm just declining.
Asked for respite because of resentment and anger towards baby and other thoughts I haven't.m shared. It's not good for me and baby to be alone like this. Wanted perinatal nurse to take baby last time we met. Thinking of leaving him at hospital where I had him.
Asked about mbu but not been complying with meds so told big eligible. Now being told they're contacting social services for respite because they don't know what help is out there for me to get a break from baby so I can get better and sort my life out.
Help! What do I do?ifeel so alone and trapped and amrunning out of options.