The Bipolar Support Thread

[BippityBoppity87]

Hi everyone Just thought I'd start a shiny new thread for anyone who is suffering from bipolar disorder.

Hope everyone is ok!

I feel really low. Starting to have suicidal thoughts again. I thought I was over this.

I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. When I read through the thread before I commented I thought you seem such a kind and genuine person and that you really want to help others. I hope you’re able to see those qualities within yourself and get some help to feel better and that you’ve got loads of support around you

Thank you @Ellalovescake

I'm feeling a bit better. I should probably go to bed. Started hallucinating again, misplacing things that I swear was there and turn around and it's there again. Hearing whispers.

I was on the bus earlier on the way home, a route a take regularly, and I almost panicked at one point as I didn't recognise where I was.

I'm hoping it's because I'm probably just tired.

bippoty I hope you can get some rest, I know if I don't get regular sleep I feel unwell.
Glad you've got some time off work!

I've got a horrid cold, woke up at 1:00am trying to breathe. My son had his friends over last night too, they slammed the door several times.

What I would give for a nice 6/7 hours sleep right through without waking.

I feel a bit better this morning, although I was sick, again. It's not because I felt sick, I have a terrible cough at the moment, and if I cough too much it makes me gag

Everyday I've been sick this week because of it.

How is everyone this evening?

I took my olanzapine later last night and slept the full night! I had a very vivid dream I was getting married and couldn't find any makeup.?!

I also had the olanzapine munchies and phoned a takeaway at 11pm. Luckily my youngest ds was in so he ate most of it

I've only got 1 and half diazepam left because I've been taking them to get some sleep. I don't have an appointment date through for my psychiatrist so I probably won't see him again till end January or February, then we will start to reduce the olanzapine.

Hope everyone else is well. I'm no good at Christmas I just struggle through it and thank god when it's all over

I take my aripiprazole at about 4pm, but I think I'm going to take it later as it does make me quite sleepy. I still have about 5 zoplicone tablets left, but I haven't needed them.

I had a vivid dream too. Dreamt that Rowan Atkinson told me I was beautiful fuck knows where that came from, but ok!

I had to get my screen fixed on my phone today. My contract company wanted to charge me £60 even though I have insurance, erm, no thanks. So went to an independent place and they replaced it within half an hour for £45 and 6 months guarantee.

I can't really afford to be spending extra money, but it had to be done.

Glad you're all organised. I know, I've spent a small fortune!

Hi Bippity I take my Aripiprazole 6pm but get tired 8-9pm. If I'm out then I try to get through it.

I've done my shopping and actually got money left which is unusual for me!

Still off work hope to get back soon, not feeling so anxious now.

Dreamed that I was Jamie Redknapps girlfriend- I wish!!

My Ds1s phone is knackered too and his insurance doesn't cover it. It's the bit where the charger fits in, it's not recognising the charger, so hopefully the phone repair shop will fix it for under £100.

I'm bored. I could tidy my bedroom but I'm not sure I'm that bored yet

Yeah I think I might start taking it about that time or about 7ish @tierraJ That's good, must class that as a win! Dreams are weird, no idea where mine came from.

Hopefully @DiaryofWimpyMum I went to 3 different places. One place was trying to charge £75 no thanks. £45 seemed a bit more reasonable. I get bored too and just end up cleaning. I've painted my nails now though, so that's my excuse. Don't want to get my new nails ruined!

I have to be careful because I can feel myself getting hyper again because I haven't taken my aripiprazole yet. If this normal? I will take it in about half an hour or so, I just don't want to feel drowsy just yet.

I’m feeling ever so lonely tonight, I hated this time of year with a passion.

Hope everyone’s doing ok

Hate*

This lack of sleep is driving me crazy(er), even ran out of sheep to count

Oh no FissionChips hope you managed to get some sleep.

I'm alright, had a wee bit of a wobble of Friday. I think I just needed a good cry, which helped as I hadn't cried in months.

I managed about 3 hours sleep. Have a lot to do today.

I’m glad you feel better after having a cry, sometimes it does the world of good to just let it out.

Better than nothing I suppose! Hopefully some coffee will help! Are you able to squeeze in a nap? Even for 20 mins?

Yeah it did help a lot. Felt like I let out a lot of frustration that I never realised I was holding in. It's strange because people think I'm upset when I cry, sometimes I am, but more often than not I'm either angry and frustrated.

Hi @Fission
I know how you feel. Been sleeping terribly lately. Cannot seem to find the right position and just lie awake. It's awful really.

Tbh glad they are serving alcohol today lol

My problem is I sleep too much. Because of the meds I'm always tired. Especially the epilepsy medication.

No naps, have the house to clean, food and wrapping paper still to buy, felt so crap I haven’t really been able to do anything.

Alcohol doesn’t send me to sleep mamadane, i just end up wide awake but very drunk . Neither the GP nor the psychiatrist will give me anything to help, I just need one or two nights good sleep!

I wouldn’t like to be tired all the time tierraJ, it must be very tough.

Hi. Can I crash this thread? BF has bipolar. I've seen one of the episodes for the first time and I found it awful. It's hard to believe he will ever be lucid or actually know me again. Are the meds always successful? I'm all over the place with worry.

Meds are usually successful. It can take a few weeks before they kick in and it also depends how bad the episode is.

Both me and my brother have bipolar, he's not medicated and clearly heading into hypomania just now but refuses meds. I know it sounds terrible but I can't be arsed with him this time round.

I slept from 12-1am then lay awake till 6am then dosed off till 9am. I don't ever feel tired, I can't remember the last time I yawned, I'm like the Duracell bunny.

I had to pick up my weekly prescription early because it's due tomorrow so I've done that, been to pick up presents, tidied ds2 room and changed my bedcovers, so I'm sitting down now.

I bought ds2 a gaming pc. The box is huge so he kind of knows what's in it. He just asked if he can open it just now. I said no he can have it at 12:00am.

Sounds like you're all organised @DiaryofWimpyMum I have a meds review with my GP on Thursday when they run out and will pick them up that day. Good to be organised

I've been sleeping really well since I've started aripiprazole, but been waking up a lot earlier than I used to. I don't know if it's because I was depressed before or because I'm going to bed earlier. Maybe a combination of the two.