Letting someone go...

[Ella1980]

I feel a lot of the time like I don't want to go on with living. I don't want to be talked out of it, nothing anybody can say will make things better. And I don't understand that if that's what I really want, just to not have to face living, why people wouldn't be accepting of this? I hate it when people say that others would be upset. Why if it's something you want? Why can't they just let me go?

Thank you. A lot of it I think is because I was in an abusive marriage for so long yet thought I was being brave to escape...only to lose my children for half of the time. I am furious at the courts. Still living in a rented damp two-bed almost five years on while he lives the life of luxury with an unemployed woman in our original marital exec five bed home. What a joke. My biggest regret in life is that I left him before I got seriously hurt.

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