Anyone with bdd? I have a baby but want to kill myself

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I have body dysmorphia. It's so bad right now that I'm ruining my relationship with my partner and struggle to be in the moment with my baby.
I keep obsessing over surgery or just killing myself as I'm such a burden to everyone around me and how can I be a good mother to my child when this is all i think about.

My depression has wore my partner down To the point he's given up on me.

We just bought a house have a baby as he says I'm still not happy so fuck it.

I don't know what to do. I've done CBT feel I'm having a massive relapse and just can't see how therapy will help anymore.

Sorry you are feeling this way. How old is baby? Are you still under care of a midwife?

Sorry to hear this, op. I really think you should make an appointment with your GP, or let your health visitor know. You are not a burden and no-one is better off without you. I know the intrusive thoughts are horrendous, but therapy (and possibly some ADs) can help - please, for your sake as well as the baby's, ask for some help from the doctor

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