Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #3

[Fairydust26]

Can you believe the last threads full up?! We had a great support network going on the previous two so come and say a big hello and join us.

Exploding head thing, is that the loud noise? I get that sometimes before I fall asleep. It wakes me right up again. Sometimes before I wake up I think I hear the doorbell or someone knocking on my window.

Yeah that's it Iblinked I get it just as I'm about to fall asleep. Sometimes it's loud knocking (always in 3's for some weird reason) a doorbell, or a voice laughing.

Sometimes I used to get it waking up with music blaring in my head. It was like having a radio alarm clock, but in my head!

Yeah I used to hear people calling my name or later on in life I used to think I heard DS calling me. Now it's just knocking or ringing.

I get knocking and ringing. I'm only in my early thirties! Can have something to do with your hearing?

I have Tentatious and my hearing isn't great at times. All the time spent at concerts, discos, nightclubs and blasting music has taken it's toll. My left ear is worse.

I think I have that. Sometimes my ears will just switch off and I'll get this swishing noise and then a monotone beep, similar to when you lose signal. Lasts a couple of minutes, it's really odd.

I have a constant ringing in my ears particularly my left one. It's easy to ignore it when I am listening to something but when it's quiet it gets quite annoying.

Feeling very panicky today I think. I can't deceive the feeling. I am exhausted and my skin feels tingly like I'm in flight or fight mode. I was going to go for my walk today but don't feel up to being around a lot of people so I came out to my parents instead as I don't want to be alone either.
I also have a date tonight which I will be forcing myself to go to.

Oh no Iblinked How are you feeling now? Good luck with your date.

I've ha an ok day, been a bit hyper at times as I only took my sertraline. Going to start taking my aripiprazole at night instead, so going to take that when I get in. I took it with me to work just in case I had to calm down, but I actually enjoyed being sore alert today.

More not sore 🙄 typing and walking.

I’ve been having an awful few days and just found this thread. It would be nice to talk

Hi starlight85. I'm still feeling jumpy. Like I want to jump out of my skin. The thoughts of this date isn't helping. I never got paid either on Friday so I have very little petrol and 20 quid in my bank account. 100 euro got taken from account but it'll take a while for it get refunded.

Hi Starlight85 what's happened? Are you ok?

Oh god join the club! I have 0 money. Like not even overdraft (spent that too) think I spent almost £400 in one day when I got paid. So now I'm going to have to dip into my savings. My DP wants to take my card.

So glad I get paid weekly!

I spent about £80 on a new pair of glasses impulse buy, even though I have two pairs already, but I don't like them anymore, I've got bored of them. Tartan trousers , two, another pair of trousers, a £50 game, a candle, now eyeing up a nice pair of leather trousers and a sparkly bag but I have no money 😩 Yeah this bipolar thing is not fun.

I’m a bit worried to say what’s wrong as I’m sure to other people it seems silly

Nah don't worry, no judgement here might make you feel better writing it down than bottling it up?

Hi everyone. This thread has given me comfort knowing I’m not alone. I suffer really badly with anxiety, particularly health anxiety which is really ramped up at the moment and makes me feel so out of control and angry with myself. I’ve had CBT but the 6 sessions you get on the NHS really aren’t enough. I’m too terrified of the side effects of medication to go down that route. I think my anxiety might have led to depression because lately I’ve been feeling so sad and crying a lot and I keep worrying I will pass my anxiety on to my daughter or that I will die and she will only ever remember me being this moaney sad person.

I think I’ve always suffered with anxiety but until I was pregnant have probably managed to avoid situations that made it worse. My little girl is now 2 and ever since she was born I’ve had awful anxiety about her, worrying if she is ok, which I’m sure is normal and it gets really bad if she is poorly. I’m just inconsolable and get so worried about looking after her on my own. But with me it feels all consuming and I just get so upset and just feel trapped and like I can’t escape. When she was 9 days old we had to call an ambulance because she was choking on reflux and since then I’ve been so much worse. I was so scared to look after her on my own. This last week She’s had a horrible sickness bug since Wednesday that I keep thinking is going and then she will be sick again. It’s just left me so anxious, so so upset, I’m scared to be on my own with her in case she I sick and I don’t even know why. I just find myself crying all the time, I’m my head feels like it’s going to explode and everything feels like it’s too much. I just want to stop feeling like this. I’ve hardly slept the past few days which I’m sure isn’t helping because at night every noise she makes panic flows through me that she is going to be sick again. I’ve also felt really sick myself and bit shaky and think I’ve caught her bug too.

Sorry for the long message, I tried to keep it short and I left out a lot of history, but it seemed quite long anyway!

Oh no, you poor thing Starlight85 That doesn't sound silly st all, it must have been very frightening for you, especially at such a young age. The anxiety probably hasn't helped.

BippityBoppity87 thank you.
It was scary and I think that’s made me terrified every time she is poorly even with something little.

I’m just so upset all the time and can’t stop crying and just wish I didn’t feel like this. I feel really alone, even though I have a some support in real life, but I don’t think anyone understands because it doesn’t seem logical

Welcome Unusualusernames & Starlight85 hugs to you both I have health anxiety too and know how deliberating I can be.

Iblinkedandiamold did you go on your date? If you did I hope it went well and was a good distraction from the anxious feelings.

Thank you Fairydust26.

I feel like in real life no one understands that it’s quite as easy as they say to stop worrying about things. I think this time what has made it worse is the uncertainty, as I don’t know when she will be better, as I keep thinking she is then she isn’t. If that makes sense. I also feel so sick myself and am exhausted and I know until I know she is better I won’t be able to sleep properly

Thanks Fairydust26 x

Starlight85 I’m so sorry for you feeling like this. I know just what you mean about anxiety making you feel so alone. I promise you, you’re not alone. I really wish I could offer some helpful advice. It’s so horrible when you have this feeling the worrying is not logical but at the same time you can’t turn it off. I imagine it’s really hard for anyone who hasn’t experienced anxiety to understand that. I hope your little one has recovered from her bug and that you at least feel less alone xx

Starlight85 I completely understand what your saying I’m like that too and to just add more fuel to the fire you also worry that your gonna get ill aswell (catching a bug is one of my worst nightmares!!) so your constantly symptom checking which makes you feel worse😬.