Will I ever be a good mum?

[Haribosmum]

As I am typing this I am crying. DS2 (5 months)is upstairs crying his eyes out and I just want him to go to sleep. DS1 (3yrs) has been sent to bed because I can't cope with him. I just feel like such a crap mum, like I should be able to look after my boys. DS1 has his last day in childcare on Friday because se are moving to New Zealand in 3 weeks and I honestly don't think I can cope. My doctor diagnosed me with PND 3 months ago but I stopped taking the pills last week because I just felt so tired on them. My husband doesn't understand how I feel and I just want to be a good mother. Please can someone tell me what to do? I'm not the person I used to be and just feel so guilty.

Hi JT. No not been to see GP yet. Past few days I've not even bothered to get any of us dressed (apart from ds1 who went out with grandma and grandad today). No feeling particually down, just can't be bothered. I will have to get up early tomorrow though because ds1 last got his last day at nursery.

You'd better hurry up JT,Cos houses aren't exactly cheap over here anymore either.

Where abouts are you coming to in NZ Haribosmum? Know a great Acupuncturist in Auckland who will help you feel happier.

Hi RT, We're coming to North Shore, Auckland. Thats where my SIL lives but will be looking for a house in Rodney (I want some land!)