Paranoid delusions

[Bhj]

Hi. I’ve posted a few times about my psychosis. I’ve been on my fourth anti psychotic, amisulpride 400g for about a month now, no improvement in thoughts. Can anyone tell me an anti psychotic that worked for them where others have failed. Thanks.

Thanks bhj, scan was fine, I got to speak to a midwife too, I'm dropping my iron dose. similar to you I'm a loss of what to do this afternoon now. Got lots I could be doing but I'm so mentally drained.

I’m glad the scan went well. I stayed in this morning so did the housework and kids baths and homework out the way so could relax now it’s evening.

I felt better today so went to River Island & bought a lovely beaded cami top for going out at night, also a pair of pink shorts for the beach!

Actually can't wait to get back to work tomorrow, that makes a change!

Re weight loss- I put on lots of weight when I used to be on risperidone so I got a referral to an nhs dietitian.

She was very good & worked out how many calories I should eat in a day to lose weight.
I've lost nearly 3 stone & want to lose another 1.5 stone.

Losing weight is sooo hard especially when you're tired from the meds & they make your metabolism slow.

Well done Tierra on losing so much weight. I’ll have to see if I can see a nutritionist to help me with losing weight. It’s good your feeling positive about going back to work, sounds like retail therapy may have helped.

My fitness pal is a good app, calculates nutrition and has a barcode scanner. It is tedious and time consuming though, good luck finding a nutritionist bhj. Glad you've had a good weekend t.

We use MFP with my son. Its been invaluable.

I did aerobics with my sister today so it’s a start once I get used to
It then we’ll do it more than once a week. Teisan I haven’t heard of that, what is mfp?

Mfp is an app called My Fitness Pal

Oh thanks. I’ll take a look at it. I’ve just completed
My homework for cbt tomorrow, I had to fill out some thought sheets about things I’ve felt paranoid or afraid of since my last session. Has anyone else found cbt helped with paranoid delusions?

I've not tried it but I've found it's helped for generalised anxiety disorder (my most recent diagnosis) it's very good for thinking logically and having something to refer back to, I find it prevents paranioa when I'm calm enough to use it. I did get to the point where I was getting migraines with panic attacks from forcing myself to think logicaly, using cbt techniques and a course I'd done on critical and logical thinking... That's when I agreed to medication.

It is quite interesting learning all about the mental filter and negative thought patterns but I’m finding when I’m extremely anxious I can’t put it into practice until I’ve calmed down. Ds has finally gone to sleep after an hour of crying saying he doesn’t want to go to sleep in case he has a bad dream. He had a bad dream last night that I told him he had to live in a different house. No amount of reassurance that would never happen worked. In the end he said he’d only go sleep if I stay awake all night so I can wake him if he had another bad dream.

People keep telling me I've got that coming, sleepless nights to look forward to. Maybe as my meds cause drowsiness and best not to breastfeed for a while after taking them my husband will do the night feeds. We will see. I'm a bit anxious about sleep this summer as the baby moves a lot but there's no real routine like there's supposed to be...makes me worried as its important to be aware of movement incase they slow down or stop, I'm. Glad I had a scan on Sunday and everything was fine.

You’ll definitely need your dh on board during the nights when baby arrives. I breastfed so I had to get up during the night and do the feeding but my dp would come home from work and look after ds during the evening so I could get 3 or 4 hours sleep before he went to bed.

Definitely, he's very keen on feeding, I allready often sleep before him as I wake up so early so we're naturally settling into a shift pattern. I'll be discussing breastfeeding and medication soon but basically I should do a big feed before meds or express milk. I've got quite a flexible attitude and will use formula as a top up if I struggle. There were signs up in obstetrics saying they no longer prescribe breastmilk without a medical reason. I think that's pretty fair, and I can afford to buy it if I have to. My mum said she found breastfeeding easy and it means I can eat more without putting on weight, I've just heard from other mums how it can be stressful not knowing how much the baby is drinking.

In the early days with breastfeeding I felt like he was constantly feeding which is why alot of people choose to formula feed so they can see how much the baby’s drinking. I’m fortunate that I didn’t have my first episode of psychosis till ds was 18 months so I didn’t need to worry about medication affecting my milk as he was weaned off by then.

The biggest risk with meds seems to be withdrawal symptoms so I see why breastfeeding is important even if I'm on medication, doctors have all said it's best to breastfeed and I bought a pump yesterday, buying small items before we move. Also doctor is only putting me on half the therapeutic dose, I've still got to go up another 25...as its a preventative and used to treat anxiety in small doses. I'm getting very forgetful and losing things past few days. Everything on the outside is going smoothly, I'm doing proper self care and socialising well as the house move and pregnancy is going smoothly.... but I woke up last night with indigestion, was nearly sick but I rarely through up get nausea and migraines instead. I even tried sticking my fingers in my throat last night but nothing came up. I'd had dinner too late last night. Woke up feeling crap in the morning, got up a few hours later, took my iron, but ended up spilling pills all over the floor, lost a quetiapine....tried going shopping after lunch but timed it with school finishing so was in the local shop with a toddler having a tantrum so I couldn't concentrate. I wanted to tell the mum how well she was doing, she wasn't giving in and buying what he wanted but instead I just bought lots of junk food... Feel really bloated again. Welcome to the third trimester I suppose... I did reduce the iron due to nausea on Sunday. Sun's out at last I'll go out in the garden now.

Sounds like you’ve got a lot on your plate. Will you be moving before you have the baby? I’m much more forgetful than I used to be, I haven’t got the reason of being pregnant, maybe my meds or just getting older.

Yes, I will be! Very excited as a few months ago I didn't think buying our first house before the baby arrives would be sensible or even possible. I am under a mental health midwife and she was not happy when I said I was thinking about moving... She has been helping and made lots of referrals and check up but she's quite strict and scary. All the other midwives say how good she is, better than doctors, it just feels like I'm back at school and she's my teacher. We've had lots of social support and have nearly finished the process.

That’s good you’re getting a lot of support as they say moving house can be very stressful so the more
People on board to help out the better.

Thanks, really feeling in limbo until housemove though...i know there are lots of things I should be doing but I've been struggling to do much, esspesally housework. Really makes me feel like I don't want to be a housewife. My husband is supportive but I'm not always happy with the way he supports me... Compares me to other people sometimes...

That’s not helpful for you to be compared with other people especially when there’s a lot going on for you at the moment. My dp is mostly supportive so I’m lucky but there’s things he’ll do like if I tell him about something I’ve seen that’s made me paranoid he’ll say things like “no that couldn’t have happened” when I know it did happen but he’s learning not to question what I know as fact without agreeing to have the same interpretation of the situation.

Ah yes, thats when things go worst between us too when he disagrees with my beliefs... My partner is really good at practical support, cooking and cleaning so it's mostly himself he compares to, just can't stand it if he compares me to his mum, who is far more of a mollycoddler than my mum...

I hope everyone’s enjoying The Sun this weekend, my mood
Improves a lot when the warmer weather comes. Spent Friday and Saturday with
Pils, off to a water park today.

Hi love this weather! I'm sad for my sister because her 4 yr old cat has just died but I feel quite 'up' because the weather is so good.