Please, please no judgement. And I know I'm going to get the MN 'get some real life advice' post but right this second I just need some support/advice on here.
If I were to phone an ambulance and say I think I might kill myself. What then happens? I have children, a house, a partner, etc. I don't know if I would but I can't shift the idea and have been sitting in absolute tears for hours now, I have a splitting headache and can barely move. I feel like I'm in so much pain but there is no real injury. I am very depressed but I suppress it hugely and sometimes it just breaks me down. I've been very worried recently that I have BPD, and think it's a very real possibility that I do which is terrifying.
So yes, if I really selfishly phoned an ambulance and said to them I think I might kill myself tobight, what then happens? Do I get sectioned? Do I lose my children? Social services? I'm not saying I won't phone in the case of these things, but I need to know for my own sanity (ha) Please help.