Hi OP
We are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
We wanted to share Mind's information with you – it has practical tips on what you can do when you feel like this and where to get urgent help. Maybe take a look and see if there’s anything which might be helpful right now.
Please do think about exploring some of the options in the link above. Samaritans are there for you too, 24/7, by emailing [email protected] or calling 116 123. You can also see the resources in our Mental Health webguide.
We'll be moving this thread to our Mental Health Topic soon.
Very best wishes from all at MNHQ.