Suicidal as a mother

[Foobarjar]

When you don't really want to live. When you feel bad 90.% of the time. What holds you back? For me it's my beautiful children. I had them , I have a responsibility to bring them up.

BUT, what if they turn out unhappy like me?

I've always a little bit sympathised with murder suicides in families. An unpopular opinion I'm sure, but I would not want to leave my children in this world with out help and their father is useless. So I'd never kill myself as I'd never leave them or harm them.

Please ring the Samaritains.

Don't want to or need to

Are you ok OP?
I understand about how your children help you hold on.
Mine did too. I had to reach out for help for their sakes when I couldn't for my own iyswim.

Hey OP. It sounds like you could use some support. Could you go and chat to your GP? There is support out there. Sending you warm wishes.

Feeling bad 90% of the time is not something you just need to put up with, do speak to your GP or call the Samaritans. You don't need to be actively suicidal to speak to them, you can just talk to them to get things off your chest and get information.

Hi Foobarjar,

We're really sorry that you're feeling so very low.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. We know you've said that you don't need any help right now, but for anyone else who's feeling this way, here's the link to the Samaritans website. You can also email them on [email protected].

Here too is a link to Mind's webpage on postnatal depression.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.

We're going to move this thread to our Mental Health topic shortly.