Surviving holiday break from therapy

[redandorange]

Anyone else utterly dreading getting through Christmas and New Year without therapy? It just seems like the worst possible time to have a break, although I obviously appreciate that it's completely normal and that wow, they must need it!

I had my last session til January yesterday and now it's almost 3 weeks til the next one. Kind of feeling on the edge at the moment, like I've lost the feeling that it will be ok. Gah.

Red- Glad I'm not the only one who thinks like that, sounds like you had a great session!

Xubie - 4 weeks! I to would feel broken. Have they said no contact? Any chance of an email during the 4 weeks?

Just found this thread and wanted to say that I'm finding it really hard as well (and simultaneously REALLY annoyed at myself for finding it so tricky!), which hasn't been helped by the fact that my therapist and I agreed that he would get in touch to arrange a time for this week as my session should have been on the bank holiday and hasn't!

So now I'm irrationally annoyed about that as well as having spent several days wondering whether/ if he will get in touch -it's all a bit like a bad episode of Friends :)

I doubt that I will get an e-mail. It's March. So not massively far away, but not too close.

Problem is, I lose all other support I have access to in March as well (a week later). I feel awful.

Apple Can you get in touch with him?

Xubie - yes, probably but in all honesty he has form for being a bit flaky (I would say that in the main I don't let this bother me because he is very good at what he does) so I have decided this time to wait it out rather than chase as eventually I will get a text. Still sucks though!

I'm sorry to hear that you're facing an extended break - I guess at least you have some time to prepare but that must be hard to think about.

Apples I also get really annoyed at myself for being so dependent. It’s so frustrating but when you are used to having that outlet every week and that support it is hard .

Indeed! Also (and this is entirely my issue, I do accept that) I in general find people being flaky/ late/ disorganised quite annoying so it's a bit of an unfortunate combination. Goodness only knows what's going on...

apples being left waiting to hear sounds difficult for anyone, but yes, it is an unfortunate combination. Or a good one?! Who knows.

My session was cancelled. Nice email, sincere apology. It is wrong to make someone else's illness about me so I tried not to dwell on it.

But I do feel like if I mattered more she would have been less likely to cancel. Not that she would be acting on a conscious level. Just something in there about my worth, not her fault. I hate that I hang on wanting to be wanted when I'm not. It's all quite wearing.

I'm so glad I found this thread! It makes me feel quite normal. I'm so glad I wasn't the only one dreading the big break, I'm on a Monday and couldn't attent one before because of work so I was looking at missing three sessions but really 4 weeks he saw how anxious I was about it and he swapped my Day around for two of the weeks so only ended up missing one full week - much more manageable. Last one was on Thursday then back to my regular Monday this week, I quite like that I am seeing him so close together. I would love to see him more than once a week but don't think I should rely on him this much and also my bank balance wouldn't like it. He is £70 for 50 mins

I'm so glad I'm not the only one that has looked up a photo online, I feel slightly stalkerey and would never admit to him I've done it but it does calm me.

Why is there a four week break in March? Is yours going away?
Mines going away for 2 weeks over Easter and I'm trying to not freak out about it this time like I did for Christmas.
Hope everyone is coping.

iktwmb so sorry to hear your season was cancelled, that's tough to deal with anytime, but especially after a break. I think however much we may consciously know it's not about us personally, it's still painful on some level. And that's ok. Definitely wearing though.

Hi Squiffy, you're in good company. I find it hugely reassuring that others feel similarly, and also I'm not the only online photo stalker

24ish hours to go. Convinced myself she is going to cancel. I almost want to email her and ask, but I won't. Have had a look at her picture today too. really miss her today.

Hi. Thanks for taking the time to reply redandorange.

Hope your session goes well today badfurday, and that you feel better for seeing her.

My DH is back to work today after 3 weeks off so I'm on my own with our 14mo and feeling wobbly. I nearly emailed my therapist last night because I felt like was going crazy thinking about her/therapy. Feels like the break intensified my attachment to her so much. Need to stop obsessing

Had my session. It was good but as always it goes too quickly and now the wait starts until next time. I didn't tell her how much I missed her and I really wanted to. I was anxious but managed to get something out of our session. Hope everyone else's goes ok.

My session is on Friday. My head is so full it can’t come soon enough

Good luck wing. Hope you have a good session.

I'm not in a great place. Wish I'd plucked up the courage to ask for an extra session this week. I'm going from feeling like jacking it all in to wanting to see her more often. My head is a mess.