Name change, would be hideous if I got outted but I need a bit of help.
I've not been doing well with my MH the last few weeks. I'm on Setraline 50g and have been for 6 months, this is my second time I've been on it, the first time was when I had P(pre)ND.
Things have got shit here in the last few weeks in my relationship and we are very broke, and unhappy and I think it's my fault but I don't really know.
I've been finding myself thinking about suicide a lot. I KNOW I wouldn't do it. I couldn't bare to leave the children, but it's occupying my mind a lot. It's almost like I wish I didn't have family ties so that I could just do it :(
I've developed excruciating paranoia in the last few weeks. I KNOW it's paranoia but I feel like I'm so hated and so unneeded in every situation. Home and education (mature student). I don't know if I am suicidal, but I feel shit. I've never felt so unloved and unwanted before :(