OK I name changed so thought id throw my thoughts in here.
First of all im what might be described as middle aged male. If you saw me you'd maybe guess me younger than i am but im looking well for my age and keep fit,eat healthily etc. Im fully employed, have money etc. Mental health issues are of course not just about being in a poor position. You can be happily partnered, working,healthy,money etc apparently no problems and still have mental health issues.
It isnt surprising. We do not live natural and normal lives. There are so many demands and precious little freedom,space and enjoyment. I'l bet there are fewer mental health issues amongst for example, African tribes people who live in communal groups.
I too have suffered periodically from depression and anxiety. I had meds for a while then decided i couldnt live my life on meds so stopped. I managed.
Life is peaks and troughs.
Samaritans? Some find it helpful but personally i find no solace in mumbling down the phone to someone who just listens and humms and hahs now and again.
I find the best therapy is finding someone to have a good chat with if possible.
Long term,the strain can have physical effects on your body.
Now? well im in a steady state mode where i have built a psychological firewall and the bad feelings are on the other side of it.
Sometimes life can seem insurmountable but sometimes its because we just try to do too much and be all things to all people. It just isnt possible.
Sometimes you have to run similar things in parallel and not let them crossover.
Sometimes you have to compartmentalise some stuff to insulate yourself from it.
Its good to talk..