Sorry, this probably won't be the most cheery thread... Just wondered if anyone was around to talk it through and didn't mind.
I'm not depressed, I really don't think so, I've been depressed and suicidal years ago, this is not that.
I do have anxiety and it is taking over just now.
I'm not substituting MN for professional help, I'm just interested to talk it over with "real" people. So my feeling is although constantly having the urge to or thoughts to hurt myself in ways that could be considered endangering my life or wanting to end it - I don't, I really don't. In fact I'm making plans and working towards the future, so why these thoughts and feelings? Is it self-sabotage? Have others felt this way?