Contemplating doing something silly

[SickEmptyNumbHurting]

I have some big exam work exams coming up (two days) and I'm scared, really scared, I will be fired if I fail and I'm looking at the questions and it's just not working. I know the answer is to keep at it but all I can see ahead of me is being dropped from a grad scheme I have worked really hard for. It's good money and all I can see is negativity ahead, I don't know what else I can do.

I suffer from anxiety and my work have been understanding and let me drop the number of exams I'm taking this session. However I said I would go ahead with one. I'm panicking though and considering doing something rash I feel like i might overdose or something, i don't know if it's a really messed up way of procrastinating or what, I just can't see s way out

If you really feel like you might do this then you need to seek urgent medical specialist help. Crisis team? Present at A and E.

I feel like I'll be wasting their time!

I just want this all to be over

I don't want to be fired, I want professional help

No. You absolutely and completely won't be wasting their time. Not in the slightest.
You need to prioritise your health and wellbeing over everything. Even the job. Please seek help. Really. Please.

I would be; it's a way of getting out of exams and deferring responsibility! But equally I'm not in a good place right now. Oh god.

Please seek help. Whether that's a friend or partner or family member who can sit with you and distract you and just be there so you won't do anything. Or medical help if you need it, you are not wasting their time anymore than someone with a heart attack is.

Don't panic. Try (I know it's hard) to relax. If you can take a break - something that will absorb your mind - jogging, talking to a friend, watch a film to give your self a break from your current train of thoughts. Good luck xx

I don't want to get fired

you need help as MNHQ to move this thread aibu can be brutal and you don't need that right now.

mental health is just as much health as physical health. seek help and support. let your employer know what is going on. speak to someone in your HR department tomorrow about it. they can give you the practical support a group of random internet strangers cant.

things are never hopeless. deep breath and start the process.

Please go to A&E.

You need to prioritise your health and wellbeing over everything. Even the job.

Exactly this. Lovely, there's no reason why you'll mess up your exam, but right now you need to take care of yourself.

See your GP, OP. This is a reaction to stress but it is an extreme one. I doubt saying this will make a difference but here it is anyway: in a couple of years you will have forgotten these exams. They will be irrelevant, whether you passed or failed. This is temporary.

Does your company have a occupational health helpline?
I work for one of the Big 4 and we have a helpline/listening service precisely for this.

I am the person at the org that is responsible for being the contact between you and the exam board - if I knew you were feeling this way, you would be able to defer. But you need to talk to someone - be it a doctor or to make work aware.

I know it seems all consuming but like PP have said, it is just a job. You are more important than that.

There is nothing wrong with deferring exams. I did it in my second year at uni. Like you, I wasn't in the right space at the time. I took up the dropped modules the following year. Really, talk to the crisis team, it's what they're there for.

Thanks. I will speak to the helpline. I'm just losing sight of everything and feel overwhelmed. Not sure how work will take this either.

OP please talk to a friend parents sibling anyone. I hate to think of a young person being so overwhelmed and stressed

Don't worry about work, worry about staying calm, seeing the GP and getting a handle on the anxiety. You can do this, OP, it's just brain chemicals going haywire!

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Sending you big hugs OP. Please go to a and e or contact the samaritans or something. You are not alone with how you are feeling right now and under the equality act you cannot be sacked for this. Best of luck to you

Please don't worry about how work will "take this". Your priority must be working out how to get past this. Do call. Attend A and E. Call GP tomorrow or crisis team tonight. Get help. You need support right now my lovely.

This might not help but I got massively over anxious about an exam I was revising for, not to the extent you poor soul sound like you are doing but my coping method was every time I felt like my head was going to explode I would pick up a cloth and wipe my sideboards down. Then moved onto my living room doors. It took my mind off things for 10 minutes then as soon as I felt back to reality I would resume my revising.
Sounds completely bonkers written down here but It did save my sanity, just the act of walking away when it got to much.

I passed the exam and had lovely woodwork. I wish you the best of luck xxx

Accountancy? There are a million people out there who failed them and have gone on to big things x

and little things too - those who love you will just want you to be happy ...