My reaction to the ManchesterBomb is wrong

[Belfastbap]

I want to scream now you know what it feels like I know that's wrong. I know I'm bad for thinking it but I'm so angry at all those who excused terrorism in Northern Ireland and aren't excusing this. How can they love the double standards.

Help me. Please. I know this is wrong.

I'm going to work. Replies might be delayed

Belfastbap - I grew up in NI and still live there. The Troubles affected all of us and our views of the world, but for those that lost loved ones, well, I can't imagine the ongoing pain and trauma of that. Your reaction to Manchester and the anger you feel towards those apologists for the violence in NI/who refused to condemn it is understandable. Please don't be hard on yourself....this has obviously brought raw emotions to the fore. Please look after yourself and I hope that you can find some measure of calm.

For anyone who is making judgemental comments on here, just think- the poor people immediately affected by this right now, may well be feeling like op in some few decades time.

Will you be nasty to them at that point, too?

Op, it's ok to be here, your feelings are real and you need support.

And just to clarify, I reported the post to MNHQ to make them aware that OTHER people were posting unkindly. I asked them to keep an eye on it as I felt the reactions you were getting were unhelpful and you might need support.

I cannot say if other people reported of course, but my report was intended to help you, not make you feel bad.

The thing is. There will be nobody on the media today excusing the terrorist who did this.

Nor should there be. It's wrong. 100%. And yet there were those who excused the deaths in Northern Ireland. That's what has made me so so angry. That anyone ever could excuse it.

Imagine how all of you who are slating me would feel if there was loads of support for people excusing these deaths in Manchester. If there were established acceptable politicians who were saying well but you know they are freedom fighters. And that was given space on every report about the deaths

That's what has upset me.

No one. No one ever can excuse terrorism and it's wrong that it ever was excused.

And I haven't named or mentioned any politician of any group or party. And I won't. Because I'm not making a political point.

And I am very definitely not trolling and the accusation that I am is completely baseless. Even though it has been deleted.

I think those people eventually realised they were wrong, OP. One of them even apologised. Don't let their insensitivity add to your stress.

I'm so sorry Belfastbap, today must be particularly difficult for you. I spent the last eight years living in Northern Ireland, just after the British army permanently ended their postings there. My time spent in NI was relatively peaceful, however last summer an active pipe bomb, seconds from detonating, fell off the bottom of a car in the middle of the busy city centre where I lived. My mother and brother were in the city as it was cordoned off, they were stuck for hours, I have never felt more worried. I suddenly understood the people still hurting from the Troubles. And it didn't even make the national news.

to you.

Thanks to those who have had kind words.

I am really struggling. I don't want to say any more because I'll be jumped on by some who have justified anger because of what happened today I know I'm wrong to feel as I do

stop apologising and saying you are wrong, op

you arent wrong, you feel how you feel and you have the right to that feeling

I hope you've had some sense of not being so alone with your feelings from others on this thread who grew up like you did and understand your feelings

please keep talking here, there will be some who dont understand what you mean but that doesnt make you wrong, or make you wrong to try to understand your feelings and write them down here

we're all on the same page, we all abhor these types of senseless attacks, when or wherever they happened and our hearts go out to anyone caught up in them, whether it was last night or twenty years ago

please keep talking

I can't. There's a stupid thread on here ask g why people are "missing" with the missing like that in inverted commas.

I was deleted for explaining what happened to my family member.

How can people be so naive and stupid not to think what it's like to be blown up? Are they really so unaware?

Our dead didn't even always make the main uk news bulletins.

I cannot describe how that makes me feel.

I can't describe how my uncle died because people here find it too upsetting

Belfast

Keep posting. Your reaction is your reaction. I'm from ROI but have lived in NI for 10 years now. It's only as time goes on that I have even slightly started to appreciate the impact of the Troubles on the NI people. The oppressive, fearful atmosphere in which people just tried to get on with their lives.

And as you say, many a tragedy ignored or excused by the media.

Those of us who didn't live through it (although of course, other parts of the UK and Ireland were affected, it was nowhere near as bad as it was in NI) don't get to criticise your trauma.

I agree the why are people still missing thread is plain bloody stupid, surely surely people must understand when there is an explosion such as this, it is understandable how some people are still missing.

I personally couldn't read how your uncle died, I have health anxiety and worry enough about things, to read the details would upset me too much. I don't think mn is the place for you to discuss that, I think you need more counselling to be able to discuss these details and how upsetting they are for you. What I hope you can discuss here are your feelings of anger and hurt and frustration and the need to get them out. I hope you can do that, I think it would really help you.