My reaction to the ManchesterBomb is wrong

[Belfastbap]

I want to scream now you know what it feels like I know that's wrong. I know I'm bad for thinking it but I'm so angry at all those who excused terrorism in Northern Ireland and aren't excusing this. How can they love the double standards.

Help me. Please. I know this is wrong.

I'm going to work. Replies might be delayed

I will apologise for my first post. Emotions are running high for me today, and I hadn't noticed this was in MH.

I hope you find some peace op.

... Belfast - ignore those who have no clue!

Its not a lone feeling that you have:

www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-northern-ireland-16028713

I'm sorry OP, I grew up in Manchester though and used to refuse to go on trains after two children were killed by a bomb at Warrington station and a huge bomb blew up most of Manchester city centre (about a 5 minute walk from the explosion last night). I was terrified. Lots of people in Manchester were also affected by the IRA.

I apologise, I didn't realise this was in mental health.

This thread is in mental health.

By its nature mental health is very unique to the individual.

Someone who has experienced previous related trauma & has struggles with their mental health in normal daily life may not react in what is the accepted 'proper' way.

There are plenty of other threads on this for posters to post - so why come onto a mental health thread and berate the OP for not reacting how you think they should?

Belfastbap, hope you're ok

Because it's in active Charmageddon and not everyone automatically checks where it has been posted.

dione the only thing on this thread in 'poor taste' are your comments.

Hope you are OK. This must be a difficult time for you, be kind to youself

Those that are using this post for political aims (NOT OP) need to remember firstly this is OP's post in Mental Health, secondly JC has actually condemned the violence on both sides in NI and thirdly a former IRA member is actually now a Conservative councillor in Croydon.
Emotive reactions are absolutely fine OP. Particularly as you recognise it as wrong. As previous posters have said have you had any help/ongoing support for PTSD?

Dione. Where else do you suggest I post it?

Belfastbap You are absolutely fine to post here.

It's fine to post here
I've lost friends in a terror attack so days like today are weird for me too
I mainly get the rage from all the "pray" shit that goes on
I don't listen to murder apologists from any side

I hope you're okay today. Maybe avoid the news.

@Belfastbap you've posted in exactly the right place. And it's perfectly normal for an event like this to bring stuff flooding back. I've been sat in tears for the friend I lost at Bataclan again. Emotional responses aren't reasonable.
However, I would suggest that it might be worth trying to work this through with someone who knows about PTSD.

Hi everyone,

Thanks to those who have reported this thread to us. We're so sorry to hear you're going through this, OP.

Our thoughts go out to all the families involved in this terrible explosion.

As other MNers have already pointed out, the OP has posted in Mental Health and is seeking support for what is clearly a very difficult experience. Please do bear this in mind when posting.

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Thank you
Lorna.

I am well aware my reaction is wrong and that I shouldn't be thinking about myself and my family at all and that my only thought should be for the victims of the Manchester attack.

They are my first thought. I have every sympathy and empathy with them but I can't help thinking how hard it was for my family when the attack that killed my family member was apologised for and excused.

I do know this is wrong.

For those who asked. I do have PTSD and anxiety and I have had counselling

Glad to hear you've had counselling OP. I'd hate to think of you not having had any help. It was an emotional response to a huge event. Look after yourself today.

I'm really upset that I was accused of trolling. That is horrible. Why would someone tell me I'm a troll and I have no right to post here?

I'm really upset that I was accused of trolling. That is horrible.

It is. Please don't let it get to you

Why is this thread in very poor taste? Why must I get it deleted and post elsewhere and where else should I post but mental health?

I have said over and over and over I know my reaction is wrong

Belfast your reaction to the news is understandable giving your life experience. I am so sorry for what you have been through. I think emotions are running very high today and rightly so and that is why you have received these responses. Ptsd is awful and can be triggered time and again even if you have been on an even keel. Look after yourself today.

OP your reaction is your own. Your trauma is your own. You are not minimising the trauma of any of the victims of any of the terrorist incidents that have happened in around Manchester.

you're reaction isnt wrong op, whats wrong is the people who commit these atrocities.

your pain is probably too deep and dark to ever go away but having counselling was a good move to try to deal with it a bit

I'm sorry

I don't understand where else I should post. I am so so sorry
If this is the wrong place I didn't know where else to put it I thought this was the right place

This is the right place Belfast.

You have every right to seek support and express your trauma.

I totally understand where you are coming from, and wish you peace.