Seriously having a bad time and i really just want to end it all. I have 4 amazing kids but I just feel so so shit. I hate everything about my life. Nothing is fun. I have so much, yet feel so empty. Too much to go into but honestly I just don't want to be here anymore if this is how I'm always going to feel. Nothing at all excites me or makes me happy. I have an interview for an access course to nursing Thursday and have wanted this for so long but what's the point ??? I know I won't be here next year to start uni anyways ! I'm a miserable fucker and no use to anyone. Dont give me sympathy or say things will get better cos I dont even help myself . I am fat cos no energy to do anything. Gone from size 10-16 and I'm so disgusting. My kids deserve so much better than me