Depressed or just bored and fed up?

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Hi this is my first post, I need some advice but don't know where to turn.

Basically I have a brilliant H a delightful 2year old and a nice home. However I feel completely down or I did a few weeks ago. I went to the GP who gave me some Prozac. My H thinks they are working as my mood is lighter BUT I?m not sure if I was depressed in the first place or just in a fed up mood for a while.

I have had a rough time since I got pregnant and had a missed miscarriage before that after tying for three years. I had hyperemisis all the way through (and Was hospitalised) and was forced to leave my job. Also during the pregnancy I suffered acute pancretitis and nearly died.

The birth that was supposed to be an at home water birth ended up as an emergency caesarean after I was 3 weeks over due. Then my daughter was born with the cord wrapped around her neck.

Since then I have had my gall bladder removed, problems with my caesarean scar and celulitis in my arm and hand and am currently not able top eat much or yawn as my Jaw has seized due to stress.

My one Vice has always been drinking wine every night (for the past 10 years). But I am too ashamed to tell the doctor this. But am secretly worrying that it has given me these health issues although the doctor tells me I have just been extremely unlucky.

I feel like I have woken up one morning looked at my life and thought my god why me and since then I feel like my way of doing things my daily routines etc are boring and or wrong i.e. not what other people do.

Has any one been through anything similar situation? My Husband works shifts, I have always been a loner so no real friends, I don't drive either so feel really stuck.

ANY ADVICE, TIPS, ROUTINES TO SHARE etc.

Good news! Sorry, thought of you ealier but had busy morning with mv appt school dashes etc.
Losing weight always makes us feel good - good for you. Personally I favour a trip to primark for some bargain clothes for little funds. Means that as the weight keeps coming off I can buy more and more and more...
Why don't you save the money you are not spending on wine in a pot and buy yourself something just lovely when you reach a goal weight?
I often feel crap about my life because I DON'T want more. People think I'm weird for that.
When DD1 got to 2 I suddenly found I felt 'normal' again. I lost weight, started to socialise again, cared more about my appearance, went to the gym and generally had a new lease of life once DD1 could communicate and was more of her own person. I was beginning to look around for more to do, outside of raising my DCs. Obviously didn't have much imagination as decided to get pregnany again. Oh well.

Foxy what do you mean you don't want more? Of what? Sorry I'm confused but curious.

I was drawn to this link because I feel the same. I think as a SAHM it's easy to assume boredom is depression. They feel the same.

My only advice is to get up and move. When you feel like a lug, stand up and do soemthing just for 10 minutes. It's shocking how that can get you going.

Oh, I mean more than I have - being a SAHM, living my life around my family. I've done all the studying, had a career, but made my choice to be a Mum (please note - not a Housewife!). Perhaps it will change when Bump gets to 2.

In answer to the question "depressed or bored" I would ay that you may well be depressed. You have had a hellish 3 years healthwise, and some of it even sounds like you may have post traumatic shock about the birth or other medical interventions - do you get flashbacks?
When you are depressed your brain will try to beat you up in any way possible, so when you are feeling bad, your brain is telling you that you are worthless and useless and that you are making everything up just to get a break. Dont listen to it, it is the depression speaking. This is hard and you sound like you need more help. Try to see what something like Womankind can do for you aswell as the GP, and see what other help sources he can suggest.
Anyway, hugs, and you are doing really well with the not drinking and trying to keep routines. Stay on the Prozac and give it a few weeks.

sounds like you are doing really well

i don't have any magic answers but i really think you should prioritise meeting some like-minded parents and groups to go to. It can be daunting at first but a weekly music group would be easy.

It may be a long time before you find friends that you reveal all too - i don't really do that even now, but they can be a good distraction and something to look forward to. Good for the children too.

aiming to go out to a class or group most days also helps to add structure and fill a day and keep baby entertainined too

The OP made me think a lot. I'm gonna make a lot more effort at toddler group with the new faces and not sit in the corner with my old cronies gossiping anymore!