After a shit Christmas my mental health has plummeted do its darkest depth, I feel like I have nothing left to give, nothing to look forward too, no one to enjoy life with, I have two children who would be better off without me, my family have had enough of me being down and I can no longer talk to them ( they judge st tell me to pull myself together ), I have been taking sleeping tablets during the day to knock me out as I just can't cope with life. I have been to the doctor so many times and am on anti depressants, I have no life 
, when people ask me ' what are you doing tomorrow? 'All I can think is 'I don't want to be here tomorrow'. I feel like I have asked for help but there's nothing anyone can do.