Just want to die

[WynterBlossom]

I'm not coping at all, I just want to end all of this so I don't have to feel this way again.

My life has completely fallen apart & I can't cope anymore.

My ex left me, is now with someone new & im left pregnant with his child.
I know to a lot of people it sounds a silly reason to be so down but honestly I'm just not coping with this!

I would always consult a GP if I'm struggling with my MH. If they recommend the higher dose then go for it. I forgot. Are you having any counselling or CBT?

Hope you're ok Wynter...

I am soon to be having both counselling and CBT, I am feeling slightly better but know tomorrow will be a new challenge

One you can face. Good luck with the counselling and CBT.

I hope I can, I honestly cannot cope with feeling like this, I am desperate to move on

I'm feeling better but know il have to do all this tomorrow

Well done W for getting through the day. I've been thinking about you. You've made it through and you will tomorrow... I promise it will get better, it will take time..

I am dreading new year, absolutely dreading it.

I'm currently sat at my sisters who messaged me out of the blue after over a year of NC, bloody need her right now

Special days are always the hardest. Don't feel like a fraud, it's difficult. Hopefully with the right help you'll be able to get through this one day at a time.

I've been by myself since pregnancy and ds is a big boy now. It's doable and you're allowed to feel scared and alone but your baby will bring you so much joy.

Please talk to your loved ones and seek help.

How did you cope being a single mum?? How did you cope being alone??

I am absolutely petrified il be alone for the rest of my life.

I'm a single mum. You do cope.
How are you today?

I know I'm jumping ahead but I'm worried for the evenings when my baby is in bed & im sat on my own feeling depressed & lonely.

After spending the evening with my sister & BIL, I am no longer emotional, I am trying to see the positives in me & him splitting up.

This sounds much more positive than yesterday, but still don't discount asking for help.

When you have your baby you will be very busy and may find you have no time to feel lonely in the evenings. And anyway who says you will be alone for long? My friend is a single mum and since her son was born in 2011 she has met her soul mate, he's moved in, has a great relationship with her son (bio dad not in contact) and they are getting married in a couple of months. Could easily happen to you...

I'm scared that because I want that to happen so much, it actually won't

I actually feel desperate, I hate myself & feel like the biggest failure in life that I cannot bear to be in my own company, why am I so bloody stupid!

I'm trying to be patient & accept that until after my baby is born in April, I will just have to deal with being alone but a few days go past & im back to feeling down again

You can explore your pregnancy options in confidence with BPAS. Ante natal depression can be very serious.