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I feel so desperate

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Aveiam · 03/12/2016 19:51

My mind is going so fast, I just can't cope with anymore and I'm so ill in my mind that it's making my whole body hurt and my heart beat weird and I feel totally lost I don't know what to do I need it to stop

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Broken11Girl · 04/12/2016 04:43

Please get help, lovely.
You won't be sectioned. There are so few beds available these days. They will probably refer you back to the CMHT. Maybe offer you home treatment but most mh trusts are so under-resourced.
I hope you're asleep but if not, do please go if you feel desperate.

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 11:23

I have no one, I have no friends and no family because he wouldn't let me. I drove for hours last night because I can't bear to be still and on my own. I can't handle anymore of this

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MoreBushThanMoss · 04/12/2016 11:39

Bumping this - hopefully a MH professional on these pages will see and be able to give you some better advice than I can as a layperson.

If you need to get things off your chest, this is a good place to start - but you must must follow it up IRL.

Are you at home now sweetheart? Flowers

Justaboy · 04/12/2016 12:12

I'm not a MH pro but from what I know of it you don't strike me as someone who needs sectioning far from it, you need help even as you say some friends. Its awful losing your DD but having an abusive man around its just even worse:(

I think you really must go back to the MH professionals involved and see if they can do more for you. MH issues are much the same in effect as any other other illness affliction or problem sometimes those maladies don't get treated or diagnosed properly either.

If it would help would you like to tell us more about the loss of your DD perhaps but only as said if it would make you feel any better. MN is a very good listener

I hope that for the moment you are resting or sleeping after all that driving!!

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 17:44

I went and got stitches but I didn't really say anything else I just knew I needed stitches. I am at home now

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MagicChanges · 04/12/2016 18:17

Oh Avejam sounds like you've self harmed. Glad you're home anyway. It isn't safe for you or other drivers to be driving round when you are feeling so unwell.

You won't be sectioned for saying you feel suicidal - I tell my psychiatrist that I have suicidal thoughts every time I see him and he just makes a note and reminds me to phone the crisis team. Do you have a diagnosis. So sorry to hear about your daughter.

Hope you can come back and talk again but understand you might not want to. Have you got any meds?

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 18:25

But I think I can't keep myself safe. I desperately want help but at the same time I don't want to be an inpatient. I don't think I can handle that.

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 19:52

I know no one can help me. I'm sorry

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fruitbats · 04/12/2016 20:00

Aveiam there are people who can help you. Do you want to chat on here?

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 20:05

I want to talk yes otherwise it's all in my stupid head

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fruitbats · 04/12/2016 20:25

Ok. I'm listening Thanks

fruitbats · 04/12/2016 20:57

I have to log off Aveiam. I hope that someone else comes along if you decide to post Thanks

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 20:58

She died at the beginning of 2014. And I have been with this man for years. But I think this is all in my own head now. I think I am having a breakdown

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fruitbats · 04/12/2016 21:00

I am so sorry to hear about your DD. I can't even begin to imagine how hard that is to deal with. Are you glad that you ended the relationship with ExP?

Vixxfacee · 04/12/2016 21:00

You really need to go a&e. I have read so many posts from you and i am sad you went back to him. Flowers

fruitbats · 04/12/2016 21:01

I think it would be good for you to go to A&E. As you recognise that you are in crisis, they would be unlikely to section you, but could offer you some form of help

Justaboy · 04/12/2016 21:01

Aveiam just tell them that. I don't for a moment think they will keep you in unless you want to but you clearly don't!

I don't think your stupid you've just had a real crisis on top of another that's a lot to handle for anyone!

Tell us all whatever you want to please!

fruitbats · 04/12/2016 21:02

Sorry I haven't read any previous threads so I don't know the history with the ex.

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 21:09

I miss him because I can't function without his control. I nee d him to tell me what to do. I don't know where he is anymore

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fruitbats · 04/12/2016 21:16

But you have the opportunity to take control of your own life. You can do this Aveiam

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 21:17

I'm so scared of a&e and I'm scared because they make me wait with all the other people

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fruitbats · 04/12/2016 21:20

Is there any crisis team that you could ring? Or anyone who could go to the hospital with you?

Justaboy · 04/12/2016 21:21

Aveiam, Do you not like being around other people or is it just at the A&E department?

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Aveiam · 04/12/2016 21:24

I panic when anyone is close to me

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Justaboy · 04/12/2016 21:41

OK seems that you have a bad anxiety problem too but you must for your sake see someone about it, i can't think that you will be completely without help anyone think that women's aid would be a way of getting that?