I don't think I am depressed. NHS says clinical depression is where you are depressed for weeks or months at a time. I'm not.
I do normal daily things and I am usually feeling mostly fine most days.
For some time now I have a sudden onset of deep depression that leads to me having urges to be suicidal. It comes on VERY suddenly and sometimes its so bad that I feel deeply depressed (can't move stare into space type depressed) all day the day after my sudden onset.
Things trigger it, like watching a very emotional film, or having a fall out with DH.
I don't know if this is PTSD?
After the onset I usually recover and I normally wont have another trigger for a while so in the meantime I continue to function normally.
What is this? I don't understand what's wrong with me.