Seriously, what would happen to my kids if I killed myself?
I'm a single mum to two beautiful dc but their father makes my life so hard I'm not sure I can take this any more. He verbally agreed to me taking the kids abroad and now it's all booked and paid for he's saying no. He's just being cruel for cruels sake.
He's said he won't give me written permission to take them but it's on me if I choose to do it but I know he's so cruel he would phone the airport to make sure they don't let us on. And if we do get on, I can see him getting me arrested for child abduction which would mean I would lose my job and I definitely wouldn't get accepted onto the course I have applied for.
My boiler has been broken for a week but I'm not an emergency case so it's not getting fixed until tomorrow. We have been freezing for ages.
Is this how life is?? Is it meant to be this hard??! I hate hate hate it! I hate my life. I just want it to end now. But I'm terrified my kids will end up having to live with their dad which they don't want. What can I do????