Hi. I've posted this here, because I am currently taking anti depressants. I've taken them several times before (Citalopram) and they have been great. I had a tough year, we moved house, it's been very hard for one of my kids in particular, I left friends behind and the new house is hard work (there's so much to do, and it's very cold). Anyway, so I was starting to get to that place where you feel in the eye of the storm of emotions, so much so that sometimes I wanted to die to get some peace. I knew it was time to take some medication, so in Feb I went back on what I am used to.
Anyway, it did definitely calm me, though didn't seem to make me feel as better as it had before. I have started feeling like I just can't be bothered to do anything - in an extreme way. I can't say it's tired, but I would describe it as lethargic, an aversion to doing anything, Not all the time, but a lot of the time. It's not tiredness. I have had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and I know what that feels like. This has the same outcome, I end up in bed, but it's not a 'dead' sleep, more like I lie there half awake but I'm just there because I don't want to do anything else.
I particularly feel this about things that 'need to be done' - cooking, shopping, washing clothes etc. I have to force myself to do the bare minimum on those, and we have been eating so unhealthily recently, which I am sure is making this worth But even with other things, like it's my birthday coming up, and I can't be bothered to think about what I'd like to be given, or how I'd like to celebrate. I think my family are confused. I do some tutoring (occasionally) and part time voluntary work, and I just don't want to do that either. I feel ok when I actually start, but I feel dreadful beforehand.
What is wrong with me? Why am I so so unmotivated by anything? Could it be physical? Is it mental? Anyone experienced this and please let me know what it is/ whether you overcame it and how.