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Aniexity depression worried about starting anti depressants :/

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mummynatty · 11/06/2016 12:29

I struggle with anexity and they also say OCD and depression all come together I have two kids and I have tried counciling through nhs and didn't get on with it also had some counciling through my local children centre and had three session then she left but luckily found another councilor :) and meet up with her every week it helps talking and ranting to someone that doesn't know you was doing quite well until last weekend just everything getting on top of me so decided to go see doctor yesterday and they put me on anti depressants the sertraline meant to help with anxiety as well just worried about all side affects now :/ but I can't carry on feeling the way I do :/
Since my aniexity popped up again I have split up with my partner of three half years he got me through a lot of hard times and helped me out of a horrid relationship before and help me through everything to do with that , I feel bit lost don't know how to be myself anymore cause I've always had him to help me through hard places in the last few years and we've always got through together feel like I'm on my own through this don't get me wrong I have few friends that try there hardest to understand what I'm going through how I feel just not the same :/
Just want to here how people get through it or found anything that has helped

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LilacLilyPad · 22/06/2016 21:39

From what I've heard once it starts working it starts being good days and bad days, gradually becoming more and more good days. Sounds like that might be happening to you possibly?? A bit of up and down rather than all down
I've only been on it 4 days and only at 12.5mg so havent noticed anything at all yet and not really expecting to for awhile :( i'm not being seen again for about 4 weeks so hoping I can report something positive by then! Cos ive been a mess for the past few months
I'm doing the same :) sitting with my mum watching TV though shes watching some murder mystery programme and its making me anxious hahaha so not really paying attention
I live in Belfast in Northern ireland how about you?

mummynatty · 22/06/2016 21:46

I'm not sure as that's how it works do me some days I'm okay others I really struggle hoping it is starting to work :) aw hopefully it'll work soon for you I know got to give it the time doctor says :) how much are you going up to in your dose?
Yeah sure you will have some positive news for your doctor by then :)
Aw I hate anything like that or the news or anything that is scary :/ makes me worry about more things and makes me feel worse :/

Oh nice I live in Devon :)

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LilacLilyPad · 22/06/2016 21:51

Going up to 25mg for a week then 50mg after that! Are you on 50mg atm?
Yeah i cant stand watching the news right now because all the bad things being reported just send my anxiety through the roof. I have to sit and watch happy feel good programmes/movies when I'm chilling lol
Does anyone else dread going to bed a little bit? I hate being alone with my thoughts and bed tends to be where I overthink the most:( and i always worry about what kind of a nights sleep im going to have
I have CBT therapy tomorrow morning so hoping that will be good

mummynatty · 22/06/2016 22:05

Yeah I was put straight on 50mg yeah same :/ yeah happy programs or films or lovey films :)
I do to as I check everything and stuff before I go bed :/
That's good your doing cbt is that first one?
I done cbt but felt like too much think I get on better with counciling as can rant and talk through all my feels and where my aniexity may have come from :)

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AnxietySertraline · 22/06/2016 22:10

Natty - do you have OCD? Or "only" anxiety Smile

AnxietySertraline · 22/06/2016 22:11

I can only watch "happy" movies etc. Nowadays...

LilacLilyPad · 22/06/2016 22:12

I was meant to start straight at 50 but chickened out at the thought of side effects so decided to build it slowly (which my doctor said was fine!) Part of me wonders if I had just gone ahead with the full dose maybe it would work more quickly.... oh well
Yes first time at CBT :) therapist is lovely and she really seems to understand. She went through her own anxiety issue's at my age which i like cos she really gets how an anxious brain works etc.
Yeah i feel you on the ranting lol!! I had a therapist before this where I just ranted to him but I found he wasnt really helping me :/ so was a waste of money. Also he was quite rude..used to laugh at some of the things i said making me feel silly

AnxietySertraline · 22/06/2016 22:13

I like going to bed - my bed is a comfort zone... A hideaway... However I am always a bit scared off going to sleep at night since I never know if tomorrow will be a good or bad day...

LilacLilyPad · 22/06/2016 22:15

Yes agreed Anxiety on the nervousness of what tomorrow will be like :/ i also get scared because I have really really vivid dreams from my anxiety so if they are bad/disturbing it really freaks me out. People seem to love vivid dreams but i hate them:( have always had them and its got worse as ive got more anxious. Sounds weird but they are so vivid i Find it hard to forget them

AnxietySertraline · 22/06/2016 22:27

Here it is 23.25 so I better get to sleeping. Hope everybody sleep well and wake up having a good day Flowers

LilacLilyPad · 22/06/2016 23:13

Sleep well Anxiety! Smile

LilacLilyPad · 23/06/2016 00:11

Lying in bed with a pounding headache and nausea and feeling very restless
Yuck Sad

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 06:09

Hope you feel better Star

mummynatty · 23/06/2016 09:39

Morning how's wveryone today feeling better than yesterday maybe because I need to get back on top of cleaning and tidying :)
Been told I have OCD aniexity and depression as they come together that what nhs councilor told me :/

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LilacLilyPad · 23/06/2016 10:03

Had quite a bad nights sleep :( I still feel sick and have a bad headache which woke me up throughout the night. Did anyone else have these side effects? The headache is just awful
Ive been told I have OCD anxiety and depression also Natty

LilacLilyPad · 23/06/2016 10:09

Had to cancel my CBT appt because I feel so wretched. Really not wanting to take the next tablet at this point Sad but i know everyone says you have to push through the side effects

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:36

Feel ok I Think... The anxiety is not all gone but my mood is more optimistic... Have been in bed all morning but not as tired as yesterday... Still tired but less...

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:37

I have had some headaches... Not really bad but they did hurt.

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:39

It is early days Lilypad... Keep going... Take the next tablet... Remember they anxiety... How bad you felt before sertralin... If you dont keep going... You will return to what you felt like before...

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:40

I hated the horrid sideeffects BUT now they are not so bad... And I am feeling better...

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:41

I no longer want to "leave" this World....

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:42

(Wanted to but would not do it bc off kids and family)...

AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:42
Cake
AnxietySertraline · 23/06/2016 10:43

I dont Think I have OCD... But anxiety.... Sad

LilacLilyPad · 23/06/2016 10:44

I've been in bed all morning too with the curtains shut and a bin beside my bed incase I'm sick. No fun at all. Going to have to get up soon though and force myself to eat something and take the next tablet......
Glad to hear your mood is more optimistic Anxiety