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I can't stop crying

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loser · 14/12/2006 00:13

May face actually hurts now. I've been crying all evening. I don't know what's wrong with me but everything is just getting too much I can't cope.

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loser · 14/12/2006 00:21

Oooh ok, you don't give a shit. That's ok, join the queue, no one else does either. bollocks

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Weatherwax · 14/12/2006 00:23

With a login name like that and an evening of crying you sound depressed. This is husband speaking but we've both had depression. It stinks. You feel lousy because you have a porblem.condition/whatever.
If it's not just the blues - hang on in there.
Don't be afraid to ask for help - it's hard but you did the first thing by posting.
You are not alone.

See your GP tommorow. There are sympathetic ones.

A friend of mine who had a breakdown long ago once told me - "I used to go to pieces and couldn't cope. Now I still go to pieces - but I can cope." You can! If not tonight - get some sleep and help tomorrow!!
all the best from a MN lurker

CarolSheetTurner · 14/12/2006 00:23

I give a shit. Please don't cry.

VeniVidiVickiQV · 14/12/2006 00:25

Well, I think it's safe to say you are depressed.

You have changed your name so i couldnt begin to guess what your circumstances are - but I think you need to go and see your GP asap because crying all evening is clearly not right. Depending on what the circumstances are - he can prescribe AD's, get you help or arrange counselling for you.

It's not that nobody cares - its just late, and there are far fewer posters around.....I'm just off to bed myself.

Ring the doctors first thing and let us know how it goes, okay?

AtterySquash · 14/12/2006 00:27

I'm so sorry.

What's wrong? Can you say?

Agree with WW - go and see your GP tomorrow. You will feel like you are doing something and taking some control.

I hope you feel better soon.

SantaGotStuckUpTheGreensleeve · 14/12/2006 00:31

Oh dear I know that feeling, when you can't stop crying and everything feels hopeless. I have been there many times and it always feels insurmountable, even when you know you have been there before. I agree with the others, you must go and talk to your doctor as soon as you can. Do keep posting on MN, there are so many of us who have been where you are. I am sorry you feel so down - you will feel better again, even though it doesn't feel like it now.

sallyhollyberry · 14/12/2006 00:39

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mamama · 14/12/2006 00:57

It's awful to feel like that. All I can say is that it won't always be like this. Things will get better but you might need some help and it's ok if you do. Please try and see your GP...

I know you said everything is getting too much but can you share any of that with us? Is there something in particular that is bothering you more than anything else? There are always MNers who can help.

fussymummy · 14/12/2006 01:06

loser

Hi, are you still up?

I'll be around for a bit longer if you want to chat.

If not, i'll be back on tomorrow sometime.

Usually later, when kids are in bed!!!

You need to see your GP.

Sounds like you're suffering with depression, unless something else is bothering you.

Take care and keep posting. xx

QuootiepiesChristmasName · 14/12/2006 01:43

I wish I was on MN then... if you're around, im going to be on until very late (or early!) {{hugs}}

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loser · 14/12/2006 07:43

sorry i went to bed and laid awake. got to get kids to school now. sorry for whinging

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SantaGotStuckUpTheGreensleeve · 14/12/2006 10:43

You weren't whinging, you were upset. Don't feel you can't come back and talk more about it - that is what we are here for, to support and help each other.

I hope you're feeling a bit better today. Have you thought about going to see your GP?

colditz · 14/12/2006 10:47

Go to the doctor before this goes any further. I felt like this before I had a breakdown. You must see your gp. You are not weak for doing this, it sounds like you are ill, and my need some medication. depresion is an illness, not a weakness.

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loser · 14/12/2006 11:46

I have some citalopram sitting in my kitchen cupboard, but I haven't been able to face taking it. I'm scared it will make me feel ill and I don't want to have to avoid having a drink over christmas.

This morning my eyelids are twice their normal size so I look particularly attractive, something else for me to moan about.

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Spidermama · 14/12/2006 11:50

loser is there something in particular which has pushed you over the edge? Or is it just everything overwhelming you?

Well done for getting the kids to school. Have you got some time for yourself now?

NbgSparklyYellowFeathers · 14/12/2006 11:57

Loser, I felt the same as you about taking tablets. I was given them when I had my dd and never took them. I then suffered for 2 years because I didnt help myself.
I had my ds a few weeks ago and I've been given Citalopram and I can honestly say that after taking them for nearly 4 weeks now, it is one of the best things I have ever done.
Things seem brighter, I can function quite normally and I havent been ill once since taking them. The only thing I have suffered with is yawning

Please reconsider taking them.
Have you thought of speaking to your gp about a referal to your local metal health team?

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loser · 14/12/2006 12:08

I still have one ds at home with me but he is having a nap at the moment.

I'm not sure what has pushed me over the edge at the moment. My ds has problems at school and I don't seem to be dealing with it very well. The other thing is really stupid but I had become friendly with a man online, his ex wife then had a family bereavement and he went back to her. I still chat with him occasionally, last night being one of those occasions, but I find the whole thing really upsetting. How pathetic is that!

I also have some problems with my exp and that isn't helping either.

I am going to counselling at the moment, that just involves more tears though.

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ShinyHappyStarOfBethlehem · 14/12/2006 12:11

I give a shit too 'Loser' (am SURE you're not one). I'm so sorry you feel like that and can empathise. Sorry not to be able to post more now, have to get off here but I am thinking of you. "This too shall pass..." it really will

(((((hugs)))))))

Cadeauxmum · 14/12/2006 12:11

loser:

I am so pleased that you have received some helpful replies. It is awful to feel alone when fighting depression.

From the responses, I hope that you can see just how many other mums have been where you are now. You are not the only one to suffer and things can get better. Try to take it one day (or one hour at a time). Be kind to yourself.

Have you seen Spidermama's question? Do you think that you might be in a situation that needs to be addressed rather than 'resorting' to the medication that has been prescribed. Do you feel that talking about it here might help?

Posting here was a brave step. There are many people here to listen and help as much as possible from on-line.

Cadeauxmum · 14/12/2006 12:15

Sorry...Posts crossed. I am feeding dd2 and colouring with ds2 so one-handed and 1/2 brained.

I just didn't want to let your post go by without adding that you are not alone.

Cadeauxmum · 14/12/2006 12:16

How old is your ds and what kind of troubles is your DS having at school? How are you not dealing with it well?

essbee · 14/12/2006 12:28

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loser · 14/12/2006 12:34

There is a current thread running about my son's troubles at school, he is 6 and my other ds is 2. I also have 2 other children. That should make it fairly obvious who I am. I'm not sure why I want to stay anonymous, probably because I feel so bloody stupid and self pitying and a huge pita. I seem to be filled with self loathing and constantly torturing myself about every decision I make. I seem to lurch from one disaster to another.

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colette · 14/12/2006 12:38

Loser - you are getting some good advice here. Hope you keep posting, and don't call yourself Loser Xmas is a really emotional and stressful time of year , I can understand you feeling let down by your new man .
Hang on in there and keep posting - thinking of you

essbee · 14/12/2006 12:39

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