Driving with the Pumblettes

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A shiny new thread . I thought if I didn't do it this evening, words would be had by magi....

Right, let bedtime chaos commence chez pumble town!

Attempting a family day with mr P....fingers crossed

How is DH's aunt? Such a remarkable age. Hope she is on the mend but know how much an infection can affect you at that age (my granny is a similar age and currently in hospital with a chest infection that knocked her for six)

Went over again this am - she's not very good at all. Very confused & agitated & refusing all medication. Our being there made things worse so we only stayed 5 mins or so. Grotty drive along A27 - so 3.5hrs for 5 mins. DH was v upset to se her like that. I hope she just slips away now as there is nothing in her life at all.

How was family day & how's Mr P? Hope things are getting a bit easier.

Waves - how's things??

(((xxx)))

Am still here....will try to write more later. How is DH's aunt? How is the sea in the sunshine?

Sea & sunshine = amazing - the light here & the colour of the sea has been stunning.

DH's aunt is slowly going................... very sad & very emotional.

So I've finally tracked this back down through the app-it took some time!

We are hanging in there but i have really needed the thread at times....I did have a day out on my own yesterday which was very much needed. Will try to check in tomo (pumblettes permitting) with news.

It's just so up and down at times. The plus side is me and pumblettes doing well but there are some dark moments when I can't figure it all out.

Took p2 and p3 swimming today with p3 going for the first time and a success

Well that was an eventful bedtime... Definitely need my glass of wine now. I could have put them older pumblettes in the garden for the night to be honest!

Waves @ Pumble.

If you put them out in the garden, they'd have been wanting back in at 3am

Do you put P1 & P2 to bed at the same time? Would there be any use in letting P1 stay up half an hour longer as the oldest & 'goodest' one?

V true magi. I hadn't considered having I let them back in!! As it was p1 was up with school related anxiety again at midnight

And then we all overslept! The sun is shining though and today will be a good day

Fuckity fuckity fuck. You know those evenings where everything just looks bloody bleak? I know it will all be ok but sometimes I wish I could turn the clock back and give the pumblettes (wellp1 and p2) a different start. Sometimes I just feel so bloody bollocks about it all. I'm ok. Just having a shitty evening feeling like a xrap mum and having a good cry. Just felt that writing something down might help!

Have had a lovely half term with the pumblettes ( even though mr p took no leave again...) but as usual 48 hours before school starts p1 starts getting stressed and on edge Again. It's v hard to see and wish I could help more.

Whilst I'm wishing I also wish there were more hours in the day so I could do everything I wish I could with the pumblettes. I am shattered but actually enjoying pumblettes

Very pleased to hear that!

Why is she so stressed by school? Is she being bullied?

I'm not sure about school. She's terrified of being told off by her teacher and I don't know where that fear has come from. She's not being bullied I don't think but the girls in her class aren't very nice and I think she finds that hard. She isn't into the same things as the other girls which doesn't help. I wish I knew why she found it so hard but she won't tell me.

She probably doesn't want to let you down!

Would she talk to your Mum? Sometimes it's easier to chat to someone who is a step removed.

What do school say about it? Any chance of her being in a different class next year?

Horrid problem for you, it's so hard to fathom young children.

We survived first day back which is a bonus. She seemed ok at the end of it if a lttle fragile.

All pumblettes struggling with sleep tonight.... Think the heat isn't helping. Don't think handle bedtimes well either as I'm tied and hungry by then. Perhaps I should have a snack when they have tea to try to make me less grumpy.

There's something not quite right with the bigger pumblettes. P1 is v unsettled and spent much of the morning at school in tears. Also struggling to sleep at night (most unlike her). P2 is just not herself couples with physical symptoms. I think finally I shall ring GP in the morning. I don't like to make a fuss but something isn't right. I do worry ive done something but I'm more rational than that....

I need to be calmer. I need to be calmer. I must work out how. Fingers crossed the pelvic floor will be up to a run v v soon....

Sat with p2 until she fell asleep tonight. Expected it to take hours...it took less than ten minutes and was quiet and calm with no shouting. At least it's possible

Siting with the pumblettes seemed to help again this evening. It is not an ideal solution but if it keeps bedtimes calmer for everyone perhaps it's the best idea for now.

Feeling pretty worn down by everything at the moment though. Trying to work out how to solve that. A night out isn't going to help really. I feel I need a night away from them all. Don't get me wrong I love them to bits but just a little peace would be amazing. And knowing that nobody 'needs' me for a but would be just wonderful.

Another better bedtime with me staying out for Ten minutes.

P2 and I stared to paint the sitting room today. Well I did...p2 painted the hallway...apparently it was a picture of Mary Poppins.... Thankfully she only had the emulsion and not multiple colours!! So much more painting to do...how to finish it off!!

What a day. Sometimes I'm proud of the sort of mother I am to the pumblettes and sometimes I'm ashamed by the sort of mother I am. This evening was definitely shame abs made em realise how much work I have to do. No excuses but I didn't sleep at all last night due to the referendum and I was/am feeling v unsettled by the result and therefore not at my best.

I so need a day away and DH agrees-tempting to drive to yours for coffee magi! I can't work out what to do!

Drive to mine for coffee anytime you want!

I honestly think you sometimes over think things - I know I've said it before but childhood isn't a path of roses that you go skipping up. It's a journey to being an adult & learning to cope with other people, disappointments , emotions as well as the joys of life.

Cut yourself some slack & come here by train & we'll have gin rather than coffee

I am also very saddened by the results of the referendum.

I put all three to bed with no screaming or shouting at all during the day

Have now put simple lentil and chickpea curry together which is cooking whilst I have a glass of wine (mr p away). Feeling super proud of myself.

Referendum result still keeping me deep in thought. The pumblettes v well informed and have remarkable interest in it all. P2's description of what is happening in the Labour Party is interesting!

How are you?